This is a conceptual story tracing the development of the B/J relationship, with a huge focus on their  physical interactions, the meaning of these and the progression of their physical and emotional intimacy through a vareity of scenarios, some of which follow canon closely and none of which blatantly contradict canon.

These warnings include: major character death, dub con, gun play, knife play, blood play, impact play, breath play, barebacking.... please note, the story is meant to explore consent play and therefore an explicit safeword is not used as this would answer, rather than elicit, questions and thought about when one is appropriate and how it should/can be used.*

(hint; if these things bother you, don't read this story. :) ).

This story is complete and will be added a chapter a day (and possibly more in universe when that is done).

*My power is back after Hurricane Sandy so I'll be posting daily again. Comments welcome!*

Some chapters may be hard to read.  Its not for everyone.

WARNING:Yes, rape, abuse and suicide (no major character death)

My advice to anyone who is or has gone through this traumatic experience...talk to someone and get help.

Thank you with my whole heart to Judy (bigj52) for taking the time to beta this story for me. It's the hardest story I ever wrote.

Banner: Thank you so so much to Ali (britinkinlor o Livejournal) for taking the time to make my banner for this.