Monday morning. “You do know it’s Monday morning right? Monday…as in new school day.” Justin was becoming pissed at Michaels grin. ”Yeah I know.” ”Then why the fuck are you smiling like an idiot? I think if I have to look at your teeth one more time I am going to hurl…and I mean it.” Justin was just teasing his friend. ”Ooh, I think someone has a boyfriend. And I think I know who,” Emmett squealed. ”Emmett shut up! Let Michael tell it himself.” Justin winked at Emmett and Emmett fought to hold back a laugh. The boys stood at they’re usual spots in school; right at the gates. They sat at the little bank there waiting for they’re fourth member. As you can guess, the school wasn’t a great place for them. It was a private school. And just by looking at the other kids you could tell that it was one. For the boys, the school only had one kind of people…the Preps. Truth be told, Justin thought that he and his friends were the only ones there who didn’t pay attention to mommy and daddy’s financial status. And he liked it that way. He wouldn’t change it for anything. ”Well, I’d like to explain to Justin why I am smiling like idiot. Remember when you and Brian had your little fight Saturday night and you left with your problems carrying with you?” ’Yeah, how could I forget,’ Justin thought, but he only nodded in response. ”Oh right, how did that turn out?” ”EMMETT!!!!!” ”Sorry sweetie, go ahead.” Emmett waved his hands with the words. Justin had to laugh at the communication between two of his friends, but the smile faded when the thought of telling them what happened that night came. ”What I am trying to say is that…” Before Michael continued he glared at Emmett. He just threw his hand up in defence. ” I met someone!” ”Aw…that’s great Michael. I am happy for you.” And Justin really was happy. He only wished that he could find someone too and not having to wait until Brian realises that he is the one. He pulled Michael into a hug. Letting go he asked, “ Now tell me, who is it?” ”Oh, you know that new kid Ben on the football team? Well, I kinda had to show him around and take him to his classes. You guys he’s really hot. I could barley form a complete thought and I started stammering like a goofball, but he didn’t even laugh…he said he thought it was cute. He asked me for my number and we talked on the phone everyday this weekend,” Michael ended with a dreamy sigh. “So, I had to drive Brian home Saturday. Care to share what happened after that?” Letting out a deep sigh, Justin was thinking how to phrase the words to tell his friends what really happened. He didn’t want to lie. He knew he wanted to talk about it with someone…not his mother and not Brian. If he talked to them there were only lies. When he was talking with his friends he could really say what he felt knowing it would be safe to tell them. ”To make a long story short, we fucked.” Justin heard himself say the words so casual while his heart was beating so hard to see the shocked faces of his friends. ”What did you do?” Emmett yelled all over the school. ”Grrr, Am I speaking Chinese over here? Didn’t you guys hear me?” ”I think we heard you loud and clear!” Michael spoke for both him and Emmett. “I really don’t know how it happened. It was like he could read my mind that night. That I wanted him to come to me.” Justin was thinking through his words. ”I know I had a drama queen moment that night but I have them all the time. That’s what Brian always says to me. I was drawing a bit; I was in my room already in bed. I must have fallen asleep because next thing I know Brian is there kissing me and telling very sweet non- Brian words. I don’t think I have to draw a picture about what happened next.” ”Why? I mean, how is it that Brian got that idea to fuck you all of a sudden?” Justin could swear he heard a hint of jealousy in Michael’s question. The silence broke after Emmett spoke. ”Oops,” Was all what was coming out of his mouth. ”Emmett what oops? What did you say to him? What happened Saturday between you guys?” Justin eyes were filled with questions and Emmett had the answer. ”Well Jus, I kinda said to him that you love him.” ”I thought you did…you and your big mouth. But that can’t be the only reason why he chose to fuck me that night. And I know it wasn’t out of love. H doesn’t love me back in that way. Kinney doesn’t do love, not since his sister…” Justin was interrupted. ”Ohm there’s more.” Emmett words were barely a whisper. ”Go on, I am listening.” ”He was pushing me into telling him what we always talk about on our girly nights. He thought you were mad at him for always tricking and not paying attention to you when we all go out. I told him that was a part of it, but not quite it. And I think I should have stopped there but instead i told him a little bit more. More then I should a have.” Right there Emmett shuts up to see Justin reaction. Justin face was white as a ghost. ”Oh no…you didn’t?!?” ”Yes I did sorry, I told him everything about you loving him and that you were waiting for him…not only as a friend but as a boyfriend and lover. And I told him that you were a virgin and that you were holding back for him.” ”No, no, no, no, Emmett why? Didn’t I tell you that should never be said out loud again?” Justin was really mad at his friend he felt betrayal under his skin all over. ”I know, but you should have seen the look on Brian’s face…he was really looking sad. I never thought he would actually take my word and fuck you out of your virginity pants. Justin I am so sorry for telling him.” Emmett was practically pleading now. Michael has kept silent all the way and took his information out of the conversation. ”Brian looked sad? Did he stare into space for awhile and then looked at his shoes?” Michael asked as he was trying to find something. ”Yeah he did, first a strict face and then he just kept starring at his shoes and hands. Why?” ”Because that is the face that Brian Kinney has when he feels pity for someone,” Justin finished for Michael. Justin felt like he was slapped in the face. And it really hurt. He couldn’t believe Brian had maken love to him out of pity. Making love…that was what it felt like at the time. Now he knew those feelings were just lies. ”Justin, are you ok?” Emmett’s voice was really filled with concern. As soon as he saw the blonde’s eyes go down with watery streaks he knew Justin wasn’t fine. ”I had a talk with him yesterday at the club. I told him that I didn’t love him…that it was a one time thing. I was hoping to get back to normal and not ruin our friendship. They were all lies Emmett. I love him so much. And I was kicking myself for not flying into his arms and kissing him. But now I know why he did it…I am glad I told him those lies although I was feeling the opposite. What I told him yesterday was the best for us both. Brian Kinney could never love me.” ”Oh honey, I am so sorry.” Emmett said while wiping the tears away from the boy’s eyes. ”Speaking of the devil, shouldn’t Brian already be here? It’s almost time to get to class.” After the question that Michael said the bell rang in his annoying shrill. Before Justin followed the others inside, he stopped and looked back. As much as he was mad at Brian now, he still cared for his best friend. As he looked at the gates to see if Brian was coming in, there was no sign of the boy.