Very short, and it's unbetad.Sorry about that. This little thingy is hard to explain. It was something i needed to write because i couldn't exept. I know this is crappy but atleast this gave me a chance to believe.
If i could sleep forever… You know sometimes you wake up and you expect him to be here, lying next to you. His warmth and his glow make the room peaceful. Looking at him makes you feel at peace, like you’re all he's ever wanted. You can watch him sleep forever. You get up and head for the shower. Taking more then the time you have. You feel relaxed. Even though you lost him. Well not really lost him but the point is he is not here with you he is not around painting or dancing to some crappy music you don’t like. But you like seeing him dance. You love seeing him dance. You love him. In your thoughts you can’t believe it that you haven’t said it sooner to him. Would that make him stay here? You pushed him to NY. Now live with the loss. Live with the fact that he is not here to hold you to kiss you. Just because his future is important. It is, it really is…but then the small voice in your head goes “What about our future? Him and me…” Those thoughts were the ones from yesterday. You come out of the shower and head to your closet. ”Brian are you up already?” ”Yeah I am going to the diner.” ”Ok just let me get ready and I will come with you” ”Sunshine I am so glad you came back…to me.” You say when you kiss his soft lips. ”I love you Brian, I couldn’t stay there painting when I only could think about you. I can stay here and make a future for myself. And it’s one I want to share with you.” He looks so young but how can a person be so intelligent. He feels what you feel. He thinks what you think. He the person you almost lost, is now here in your arms. Filling the room again with the peace he brings. ”Justin…I love you too.” That’s all he needs.