This is the last chapter of this story. This chapter is not writen by me but by my co worker in this story Rachele.
Diva8831
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Justin’s POV
Taking a deep breath I look at the business card Brian gave me, and the address he has on the back making sure for the millionth time I’m at the right place, I grab hold of Gus’s hand and knock on his door.
‘Its now or nothing.’ I think.
“Hey.” He greets me with a slight smile pulling the huge metal door to his loft open and taking hold of Gus’s hand I return the smile.
“Hey Brian, are we early?” I ask hoping we didn’t catch him at a bad time. We could have very well interrupted him while he was ‘entertaining’ one of his guests, despite how much Deb says he may have changed I doubt he stopped fucking around.
“Ha… no, that is funny though Sunshine.” He says with a smirk. Pulling the door the rest of the way he ushers us into his loft. Damn, it’s beautiful, I think letting go of Gus’s hand for a bit. I walk around and look at the tasteful and expensive looking furniture he has decorating the loft, he always was a label queen I think to myself.
“So, does it meet with your approval?” He asks. Looking at him I smile slightly nodding my head.
“Yeah… I mean wow Brian, seems you did well for yourself.” I answer him taking a seat near him on the couch slipping off my jacket I toss it on the arm rest, leaning back I look at Brian and smile.
“Yeah I guess I did, working at Vanguard is what I wanted I guess, it fills the void and well I’m damn good at what I do.”
Laughing softly I shake my head. “Cocky as ever I see, well good for you.” I say trying to cover my nerves. It’s hard being around Brian seeing him, it’s fucking with me, it’s almost like old times only…
“Daddy” I hear and feel a small tug on my leg.
“Yes what is it little man?” I say in a soft voice looking down at Gus. “Can I have my truck now?” He says looking up at me. I nod taking his toy from my messenger bag and I give it to him.
“How are you…you and Gus though how have you been?” Brain asks once Gus is out of earshot. Looking him in the eye I bite my lips ‘play it cool, you can’t go being a silly faggot and laying your heart bear now’ I think to myself. “Oh, we are fine I’ve been ok really just busy being a dad and all.” I trail off as I catch Brian eyes as they land on Gus and think that things really got fucked up.
“Ah well I see, I guess having a kid can keep you kind of busy....not that I would know.” Turning again he says the last part looking me in the eye. “What the hell happened Justin?” He asks me and I can hear the anger rising in his voice.
Sighing I run my hand across my face. “So many things changed senior year Brian and a lot of shit got fucked up, after we fucked well you know what happened, I struggle to keep going I didn’t think ...no I knew you wouldn’t change for me you made it clear and we were barley speaking then anyway.” I say feeling like a weight has been lifted just getting that off my chest after three years.
“But, you didn’t even say goodbye Justin, or call that is fucked up.” Brian says barley above a whisper, looking at me in the eyes, I can see hurt that is still there and it breaks my heart.
Brian’s POV
Looking at Justin I hope he can’t actually see how hurt I was…still am about how he handled things back then, I mean yes we were fighting and it was pretty damn bad back then, but he was still my best friend no matter what and I didn’t think that would change.
“I’m sorry.” He says moving in closer to me on the couch. “I didn’t say goodbye and yeah that was fucked, but don’t try to make me feel bad knowing good and well you weren’t ready for us.” He says nodding his head towards Gus who is playing with his truck contently.
“Hell I wasn’t even at the time, but I got used to it and I wouldn’t change anything.” He says quietly with smile looking at Gus.
‘Shit, he looks a lot like me.’ I think to myself. I’m a father and I don’t even know my own kid, then my anger hits me in waves and these entire feelings flood back of missed time and shit.
“Whatever Justin, what’s done is done you had your reasons, but I had a right to know even if you thought I’d be a shitty father.” I say getting up and walk over to the cart where I keep my liquor and fix myself a shot of Jim Beam.
Downing it in one swallow I look towards Justin and see his frown. “ Of course you’d make this about you, you ass don’t you see I did the only thing I could back then I was still a kid, but now that you know about him you can see him whenever you’d like…if that’s what you want?” he says his voice rising just a little with the last part.
Running a hand through my hair I take a second to process things
“Mister, Dad… uh can we live with you now?” Gus says shocking the hell out of me looking from him to Justin I try to see his reaction in his eyes.
“Gus, I don’t think that is going to happen little man, your...your Dad lives here, but we live with Nanna remember?” Justin says to Gus keeping his voice even and calm.
“But Daddy please?” He whines. “I don’t wanna go!” He says pouting his lips in a frown.
Walking over to Gus I bend down. “Hey Sonny boy, I’m here and you don’t have to go now alright?” I pull Gus to me and hug him meeting Justin’s eyes he nods. “Yes Gus we are going to stay here for the wedding for Uncle Mikey, so you can stay with your dad if you want.” Justin says.
Seeing the emotions in Justin’s eyes lets me know he is still unsure, and I can tell he is uncomfortable being around me with Gus, releasing Gus he runs off to go back to playing. ‘Fuck’ I hate that things are like this, I knew back then that I couldn’t fuck Justin...and give him what he had wanted probably still wants.
“Um, well how is your mom?” Justin asks pulling me from my thoughts his voice strained, shaking my head with a slight smirk knowing he is trying to change the subject. I walk back over and sit next to him on the couch.
After a while of chatting like strangers, getting to know each other again was bizarre, Justin yawns.
“ Oh shit, it’s late.” He says looking at his watch. Nodding I let my eyes drift to Gus laying curled up with his thumb in his mouth on the white carpet. Instead of freaking, I look over at Justin again. “Hey, just stay here the night, he is already sleeping.”
“No.” He says shaking his head, grabbing hold of his hand I pull him back down onto the couch.
“Watch it asshole!” He says in a hushed yell.
“Stop acting like a twat, there is no reason to wake him up and drive this late at night, he is already sleeping just stay the night.” I say casually
Sighing he leans his head back, “fuck...ok fine but where will Gus and I sleep?” He asks not bothering to look at me.
“On the bed.” And with that I stand up and grab a pillow and blanket bringing it back to the couch. I help Justin get Gus up off the floor and tucked into bed.
Kissing his little chubby cheek I nod towards Justin and keeping my eyes on him a few extra seconds I think about how beautiful he is.
“Night Justin.” I toss over my shoulder, damn my cock is almost fully hard and all it took is one look at him under the glow of the lights.
“Night Brian.” He whispers back.
Making myself comfortable on the couch I lay back as the events of the day, the past three years, rush back and cause me to think. Finally after a while though sleep gets the better of me and I drift off.
Epilogue
Five Months later
Justin’s POV
Waking up, I slowly turn over and stare sleepily at the love of my life lying peacefully beside me, Brian is so beautiful and at peace in his sleep. Taking in this quite moment I can’t help, but think about how much things have changed, everything changed the minute I came back for Michael and Ben’s wedding. It’s crazy all it took was a week to take back three years of hurt and misunderstanding. After a few weeks Gus and I were packed and back here with Brian were we belonged.
Gently brushing a hair away from Brian’s eyes, I smile ‘god I love him.’ After some yelling, and a few tears I finally got back that feeling...and I finally understood Brian loved me more than even I thought he could. It’s by no means perfect though, nothing like what I thought I had needed back then, but what we have works.
“You're doing it again.” Brian says his without even bothering to open his eyes, damn it how does he do that?
Moving deeper into his arms I rest me head on his chest. “I have no idea what you’re talking about.” I answer with a smirk.
“Whatever you say Sunshine. I think it actually makes sense I mean you can’t help it wanting to admire my body.” He says tongue in cheek, ugh his ego.
Sighing I shake my head and move from his arms slowly getting out of the bed I give him a look. “Brian come on we won’t have time for fun in the shower, your mom isn’t going to keep Gus forever.” I say and with that I make my way to the shower knowing he is following close behind.
Our little ‘break’ is over, it’s time to get back to reality I think, it’s always nice to face a new day with a fresh fuck, and more than that a partner and soul mate.