“You are mine! Mine!” Clark screamed. “Stop. Please.” “Fuck you. How could you? I gave you what you wanted.” Clark hissed as he once again grabbed Brian’s head and hit him on the floor. Brian pushed Clark away, but cried out in pain. He moved his hands to his chest and felt warm blood rushing out of himself. He started crying. “You are nothing but a fucking whore.” Clark told him. Clark picked the knife and put it close to Brian’s neck. “Justin is not going to want you when I am done with you.” Clark hissed as he hit Brian in the head again. “He will hate you for being such a slut.” Brian could feel like his head was about to explode. It hurt so much and then he felt Clark’s hand on his crotch. He could feel Clark’s erection poking him on his thigh. “Stop.” Brian sobbed. “I want to be inside you.” Clark told him. “NOOOO!” Brian screamed with all his might as he opened his eyes. Seconds later, Brandon was rushing inside Brian’s room. “Brian? Are you okay?” Brandon asked, touching Brian’s shoulder. “No.” Brian yelled and pulled away. Brian moved to the wall and wrapped his arms around himself. “Don’t touch me. Stay away from me.” Brian told him. Brandon was crying by then. “It’s okay. It’s me, Brian.” Brandon told him. “No.” Brian whimpered. “Just stay away, please.” “Did you have a bad dream?” Brandon asked, wishing that Daphne was there with him, but she was working at the hospital. “I don’t know.” Brian told him. “I can’t remember it. It was just…it was…it made me feel scared. So scared and trapped. I can’t remember it.” Brandon nodded as he rubbed his face trying to clean the tears away. “I’m going to the kitchen to prepare you a tea so you can relax, okay?” Brian nodded. “Just leave it…I’ll get it.” Brandon nodded and started to walk out. When he looked back at Brian, the brunet was on the floor crying and he wished he could go hug his little brother and make it all better. *** Michael knocked on the door and waited. Justin opened the door and walked away. Michael went inside and closed the door. “Damn man! What the hell.” Michael said, smelling Justin all the way where he was. “How much have you been drinking and since when?” Justin walked to his desk and pulled out a folder. He walked back to Michael and gave it to him. “Here you go.” Justin told him. Michael opened the folder and looked at the drawings. He was amazed at how great the drawings were. Justin had really captured each detail and then it hit Michael that Justin was drinking to forget. Michael put the folder down and walked towards Justin who was serving himself a drink. “How are you doing?” Michael asked. Justin shrugged. “They are great.” Michael told him. “Thank you.” Justin said. “I saw that you changed the ending. It looks like Rage is killing the villain.” Michael said. Justin swallowed. “I’m sorry, but I think…it’s better that way.” Justin said. Michael nodded. “Is that how you want Brian to read it?” Michael asked. Justin cringed. “Fuck.” Justin hissed. “I don’t want him to read it any fucking way.” “I think we should put it the way it was.” Michael said. Justin swallowed and nodded. “I will give you the drawings later then.” Justin told him. Michael nodded. “So how are you and Brian?” Michael asked. Justin shrugged. “How is the seduction going?” Michael asked. Justin looked up and smirked. “You.” Michael smirked and nodded. “God, Michael.” Justin said. “He felt so good in my arms. I wanted to take him to bed and make love to him.” Michael moved to sit on the stool. “He still trembles when I touch him as if I might do something to him.” Justin said sniffling. “You have to give him time.” Michael told him. “He went through a lot. God knows what he was feeling when he was being attack or if Clark said anything to him.” Justin closed his eyes and scratched the middle of his forehead before he let his hand rest over his eyes. He took a couple of deep breaths before he moved his hand away and opened his eyes. “I wanted to kill Clark.” Justin said and paused. “I still do. That bastard. That fucking asshole!” Michael swallowed, seeing the pain and anger in his friend’s eyes. “Have you thought about getting some help?” Michael asked. “Brian has a shrink.” “I’m not Brian. I don’t need one.” Justin said. “I think you are wrong.” Michael said. Justin looked at Michael and thought that maybe Michael was right, but he didn’t say anything and eventually Michael left him alone. Justin just drank some more. *** “Hey man.” Matthew said as he put his hand on Brian’s shoulder. Brian stepped back and looked at his friend. He had been walking to his math class and was startled. He still didn’t like too many people touching him. The only ones he allowed were Brandon, Daphne and Justin. “Hey.” Brian said. “Look at this.” Matthew said giving Brian two little pieces of paper. “What is this?” Brian asked. “Tickets for the monster truck next week.” Matthew said. “My brother gave them to me. You can take someone. I have more.” “It’s not my kind of thing.” Brian told him. “Oh, okay. Maybe you know someone that would like to be there.” Matthew told him. Brian kept the tickets. “So do you want to go to the movies on Saturday?” Matthew asked. Brian shrugged. “Is that a yes or a no?” Matthew asked. Brian smirked. “Okay.” Brian told him. Brian liked Matthew because he thought the other boy was funny. “Great.” Matthew told him. “I will call you.” Brian nodded and kept on walking to his class. *** Brian looked at the folder in front of him. The story that Michael had done was there. It was his story. The brunet wanted to open it, but he was scared to know what had happened. He still couldn’t remember what had happened to him and he wasn’t sure if he wanted to. Brian took a deep breath and pushed the folder away. He got out of the chair and walked to his bed. He got comfortable and slowly his eyes closed until he was sleeping. Daphne laughed and shook her head. “Shut up.” Brandon said. Brian smirked and watched Justin laughing. “Well, at least we know that the Kinney men are well endowed.” Brandon turned red and Daphne and Brian laughed even harder. “I hate you.” Brandon said. Justin smirked and sat down next to Brian. Brian quickly stretched out on the couch and put his head on Justin’s lap. Justin started to message Brian’s scalp. “I’m going to go.” Brandon said going up the stairs. “You are so mean.” Daphne said smirking at Justin. “I’m a saint.” Justin said. “Aren’t I, baby?” Brian smirked. “You are my blond devil.” Brian told him. “Ah.” Justin gasped mockingly. “You need punishing.” Daphne had laughed and went after Brandon. “You can punish me all you want.” Brian said licking his lips. Justin smiled and pulled Brian into his arms. Brian was really happy as his boyfriend kissed him. Brian slept with a little smile, clutching his pillow under him. *** “Put that down.” Debbie yelled at Daphne who was in the kitchen doing the dishes. Some of them laughed at how Daphne was always trying to help Debbie, but Debbie always refused saying she could do it just fine. “I’m going outside.” Justin said to Michael. “So what made you decide that?” Ben asked looking at Brian. “Is it because your brother is in advertising too?” “No. When I was twelve he showed me what he did and I liked it. It could have been anyone showing it to me and I will still have chosen it.” Brian told him. “It something I want to do because I’m interested in it, not because my brother does it.” Ben smiled and nodded. “He is a very smart kid.” Vic said smiling. Emmett and Ted smiled at Brian. Brian smiled and got up to go to the kitchen. “Do you want anything else?” Michael asked Ben. Ben shook his head. “Are you going to Babylon?” Ted asked Emmett. Emmett shrugged. “I don’t know. Probably.” Emmett said. Vic got up and went to put his plate in the kitchen where he found Debbie and Daphne arguing over doing the dishes. Brian was serving himself some water. “Go sit down.” Debbie told Daphne who rolled her eyes and did what the woman told her. Brandon came down the stairs and looked as Brian left the house through the kitchen door. When he looked around he knew that his brother was following Justin. He went to the couch and sat next to Daphne. “Hey.” Brian said as he approached Justin. Justin looked back and smiled. “What is that?” Brian asked looking at Justin smoking some weed. “What do you think it is?” Justin asked. Brian smirked and shrugged. “Can I touch you?” Justin asked facing Brian. “What do you mean?” Brian asked. “Can I put my arm around you?” Justin asked. Brian nodded. “Do you want some?” Justin asked as he held Brian tight. “Wouldn’t it kill my brain cells?” Brian asked and then rolled his eyes. “I sound like such a dork.” Justin laughed and Brian took a drag. He inhaled it deeply and then let go of it. He coughed a little and then looked at Justin with a little smile. “You are so hot.” Justin said kissing Brian’s cheek. “Can I have some more?” Brian asked. Justin smirked and shook his head. “Why not?” Brian asked. Justin shrugged. “Because your brother would kill me if he found out you were smoking weed.” Justin said. “Have I ever done that?” Brian asked. “Not with me.” Justin told him. Brian smiled widely. “Cool.” Brian said happy that he had done something he hadn’t done before. Brian was tired of people telling him that he already had done or seen things that for him felt new. Justin laughed and kissed Brian. He let is tongue slip into Brian’s mouth and kept his hand above Brian’s waist pretending like it wasn’t killing him. Justin opened his eyes wide when he felt Brian’s hand touching his crotch. “Oh god.” Brian said pulling away since he had his eyes open and saw Justin’s reaction. “I’m sorry.” Justin smiled and pulled Brian towards him. “Don’t be. It’s okay. I just wasn’t expecting that.” Justin told him. “I don’t know why I did that.” Brian said as he looked at Justin. “I just…wow.” Justin smirked. “It’s okay, baby.” “Do you want to fuck me?” Brian asked. “What?” Justin asked, taken aback. “I mean…do you want to be with me in that way?” Brian asked as he looked away from Justin. Justin kissed Brian’s neck and the brunet gasped and trembled. “Of course I do. But you are not ready.” Justin told him. “I’m sorry.” Brian told him. “I’m sorry I’m not like before.” “Shhh.” Justin told him. “You are just like before baby. You just can’t remember.” Brian smiled widely. “You are still my sexy little boy.” Justin told him. Brian hugged Justin tighter. “I love you.” Justin said. Brian smiled and kissed Justin on the nose. They smiled and kissed each other passionately. They kissed and hugged tightly and even though Brian wanted to see what it would be like to have sex, he knew he wasn’t ready yet. And he really wanted to because he knew the blond loved him and he wanted to make Justin happy.