I’m killing myself from the inside out And all my fears have pushed you out Brian and Michael arrived at Babylon together. Michael was in cloud nine because his friend had recovered his senses and stopped seeing Justin. “There are the guys,” Brian said walking towards them when Michael stopped him. “What are you doing?” Michael asked. Brian stared at Michael like he was a complete idiot. “Justin is with them,” Michael told him. “So?” Brian asked. “You can’t go there,” Michael said. “And why is that Mikey?” “Are you going to talk to him?” Michael asked. “You’re not seeing...you’re not fuck buddies anymore.” “Are we enemies now?” Brian asked. Michael shook his head. “I thought you wouldn’t want to see him.” “Michael,” Brian said as he threw his arm around Michael’s shoulder and they resumed walking. “We’re just not fucking anymore. We didn’t decide to start a war against one another.” “I know that,” Michael took a deep breath and kept on walking with Brian. “Boys,” Brian said. “Brian,” Emmett looked at Justin. “How are you doing?” “Fantastic,” Brian told him. Justin drank the last of his beer and put the empty bottle at the bar. “I’ll see you guys around.” Michael watched him go and turned to Brian. “I guess he doesn’t want to see you.” Brian shrugged and asked for a drink. “Why did you and Justin break up?” Emmett asked. “He was perfect for you.” “We got bored,” Brian said. “I bet,” Emmett shook his head. “Do you want to dance Brian?” Michael asked him. “Not right now,” Brian told him. “I’ll dance with you,” Emmett said. When they were gone Brian arched a brow at Ted who had been standing there not saying much. “I’ll just disappear then,” Ted said and left. Brian’s eyes landed on the blond. He was dancing with some guy and he wished he could go there and tell the guy to fuck off and then again why not do it. Brian walked over to them and gave the guy one of his intimidating looks. The trick moved away quickly. “What the fuck are you doing?” Justin asked and started dancing with Brian instead. “Are you mad at me, Justin?” Brian asked. “Why do you care if I am?” Justin asked and turned around walking to the bar. Brian was following him. “I don’t want us to be enemies.” “Don’t worry,” Justin said. “A shot of beam,” he said to the bartender. “You’re a nice guy. We can be friends,” Brian told him. Justin drank the liquid and looked at Brian. “No problem. Now if you excuse me I have a trick to find.” Brian watched him and wanted to slap the blond around. He frowned and turned to ask for a drink as well. He didn’t know why Justin was acting so cold towards him. “Brian,” Michael said. “What was that all about?” “Excuse me,” Brian said and left Michael alone at the bar. He walked to the backroom. He needed to find someone to fuck soon. “Fuck,” Justin said as he went back to the bar. The guy that had been dancing with him disappeared. “Justin,” Michael said. “Mikey,” Justin grinned at him. “What do you want?” “I want you to stay the fuck away from Brian,” Michael told him. “I’m not after him,” Justin said. “He’s the one that came to talk to me. Do you have eyes?” Michael pouted. “He doesn’t want you.” “You truly are like a little kid, aren’t you Mikey?” Justin chuckled. “Fuck you,” Michael hissed. Justin watched as Michael stormed away and he smirked. He looked at Ted who was staring at him. “What?” “I was minding my own business,” Ted told him. “You don’t have a business of your own to mind, Ted,” Justin told him. “You’re pretty boring.” Ted frowned. “I’ll just go,” he said moving away once again. Justin asked for another drink and stared at it. “Piece of shit,” Brian hissed as he stood next to Justin. Justin arched a brow. “The tricks tonight are for shit,” Brian hissed. “Yeah,” Justin agreed. Brian looked at him and then asked for a double beam. He drank it quickly and noticed that Justin wasn’t drinking. The blond was only starting at his drink. “What’s wrong with you?” Brian asked. “Not a thing,” Justin assured him as he started drinking. “I’m fucking perfect.” Brian grinned and knew there was no discussing that issue. Brian knew him inside and out and Justin did definitely fell into the steps of perfection. He could see thought, that something was bothering the blond. “What?” Justin asked looking up. “What?” Brian shrugged. “Why are you looking at me that way?” Justin asked. “In what way?” Brian asked. Justin frowned and stayed quiet. Brian leaned in closer. He could feel Justin’s breath hitting his face and it made him quiver all over. He wanted to take the blond and fuck him senseless. “What way, Sunshine?” Justin swallowed hard as he felt himself getting hard. He wanted to fuck the man right then. He didn’t think it would be so hard getting over Brian. “You haven’t answered me,” Brian told him. “Fuck off, Brian,” Justin spat out. “Why are you still here?” Brian asked, “if you’re having no luck with the tricks?” “Why are you?” Justin asked. Brian smirked and leaned closer. He licked his lips debating if he should kiss the blond right then. Justin closed his eyes imagining that he was kissing Brian. “No,” he pulled back. “I can’t do this.” “Do what?” Brian asked a little bit startled. “I...you were right,” Justin nodded as he remembered Brian’s words. “Let’s not make it complicated.” Brian just nodded. Justin put some money at the bar. “I’ll see you around.” Brian watched him go and turned his back on the blond. He had been an idiot for pushing the blond away but he wasn’t going to say that. Things were better just left alone. *** All of the things we want each other to be We never will be, we never will be And that’s wonderful, and that’s life Brian entered Babylon around eleven. He wasn’t even going to go since he knew there was going to be a celebration for a couple that had gone to Vermont and gotten married. But Michael had bitched enough to him about going out and he gave in. Then there was the truth, he wouldn’t have accepted the invitation for anyone, but he thought he might get to see Justin. “Brian!” Michael shouted. “We’re here.” Brian walked over to them and kissed Michael on the lips, briefly. “We were waiting for you,” Michael smiled from ear to ear. “Isn’t this great?” Brian looked around and shook his head slightly. He turned to the bartender and asked for a glass of J.B. “Hi, I’m Dorian,” the guy said looking at Michael. “Do you want to dance?” “I’m not interested,” Michael said. “He was hot,” Ted said when the man walked away. “He wanted you Mikey,” Brian smiled. “I didn’t like him,” Michael shrugged and moved closer to Brian. “Do you want to dance, Brian?” “No,” Brian said and left them there in search of a trick. “Brian never changes,” Ted said. “I don’t see anything wrong with the way he is,” Michael told them. “Please,” Emmett rolled his eyes. “Ladies,” Justin said and kissed Emmett on the cheek. “How are you girls doing?” Emmett smiled at Justin and blushed a bit. “Don’t tell me you’re going to prey on Emmett next,” Michael hissed. “Of course not,” Justin said. “I just like kissing hot men all the time.” “Hi,” a teenager boy said as he came up to them. “I’m with my friends here.” “Hello sweetie,” Emmett said. “I was wondering if you wanted to dance with me,” the boy looked back at his friends and then back at Justin. Justin smirked and walked over to him. “What’s your name?” “I’m Ian,” he told him a bit scared. “Then let’s go dance,” Justin said. “Justin, he’s just a baby,” Emmett warned. “I’ll be careful,” Justin threw them a cheeky smile before he walked away with Ian. “He can get into so much trouble,” Ted told them. “Let’s hope not,” Emmett said. “He’s such an asshole,” Michael protested. “He’s just like Brian,” Ted reminded him. “Which means,” Emmett said taking his cosmopolitan, “that there isn’t anything wrong with him.” “Those were your words,” Ted said. Emmett walked away to the dance floor. “Since when did Emmett start defending Justin?” Michael asked. Ted shrugged not really caring one way or another. “Do you want to dance?” “No,” Michael said and walked away to find Brian. Meanwhile Justin was dancing with Ian. He was having a good time groping the boy and hearing him moan. He saw Brian coming out of the backroom and he pulled Ian with him. “Where are we going?” Ian asked. “Come one,” Justin said. “We’re going to have some fun.” “Who is that with Justin?” Brian asked Emmett. “Ian,” Emmett said. “Some guy he just met.” Brian nodded and went to the bar. “Brian,” Michael came out of nowhere. “I want to dance with you.” “Fine,” Brian told him and took Michael to the dance floor. They danced for a while before they went back to the bar. Ted and Emmett where there too talking about Emmett’s decorating business. “Want one?” Brian asked as he offered an E to Michael. “No,” Michael told him. Brian put it in his mouth. “I’ll take it,” Justin said. Brian looked at him and bent down opening his mouth slightly. Justin grinned and kissed Brian. He pulled back when Brian pushed the pill in his mouth. “What the fuck are you two doing?” Michael asked getting angry. “Sharing, Mikey,” Brian told him. “That’s what friends do,” Justin assured him. “Don’t you?” Michael took a deep breath. “I sometimes wonder if Michael is going to turn really red and his head is going to explode like a balloon,” Emmett whispered to Ted. “Cartoon style.” Ted started choking on his beer. He coughed a bit and then laughed. “Michael!” Some guy said grabbing the man’s arm. “Come here there is someone that I want you to meet.” Michael walked away from his friends to see what the guy that was pulling him wanted. “So,” Justin said looking at Brian. “What are you doing here? This is not your kind of night.” “No,” Brian said. “Michael invited me. And I thought I could find someone praiseworthy of my time.” Justin just nodded. “What about you?” Brian asked. “Same as you,” Justin told him. “Trying to find someone to fuck.” The music stopped and everyone started applauding. Justin looked at the stage and shook his head as he said, “pathetic.” “Come on, Teddy,” Emmett said pulling his friend. “I want to see this.” “Yes it is,” Brian agreed. The people on the stage gave a speech and then everyone started applauding. The music started again and confetti started falling down. “How long do you think they will last?” Brian asked. “Until one of them gets caught fucking someone else,” Justin said. He looked down at his drink and frowned seeing that a piece of confetti had gotten inside. “I’ll buy you another one,” Brian told him smirking. “Sure,” Justin said and put his old drink on the bar. “There you go,” Brian gave the blond a new drink after the bartender brought it. “Thanks,” Justin said. “No problem,” Brian watched him. Justin was looking back at the stage as the newlyweds kissed. “What every gay man wants,” Brian blurted out. “Do you?” Justin asked raising a brow as he looked at the taller man. “No way,” Brian laughed and got closer to the blond. “But I’m special.” “You don’t say,” Justin smirked. “That’s the exact word they use for people with incapacitations.” “Fuck you, Justin,” Brian pulled back and grabbed his bear. He took a long mouthful of the liquid and stayed quiet after that. “Well,” Justin said after a few seconds. “I don’t want that either.” “Yeah right,” Brian muttered. Justin looked at him and sighed. “I don’t care what you think. Or what anyone might have made you think. I never asked you to be something else for me, Brian,” Justin told him. “I wasn’t about to change for you so I didn’t expect anything from you.” Brian frowned and looked away for a moment. “It wasn’t that.” Justin stayed quiet not sure he wanted to hear what the real explanation was. “Never mind,” Brian took a sip of his drink. “I’m going to go mingle.” “You do that, Brian,” Justin said. “I’m out of here.” Brian held him back. “It was the right thing to do.” “We had a good thing going,” Justin told him. “I was never what you thought I was,” Brian said. He was sure that Justin had seen him as a partner some time along the way. “No,” Justin pulled his arm away. “I thought you had balls and did whatever the fuck you wanted. Now I can see you’re nothing but a fucking coward,” he then left. Brian stood there sure that Justin was right; after all it was him that had backed away. *** What am I gonna do while I'm looking at you You're standing ignoring me Justin was at Woody’s with Daphne. He had just introduced her to Emmett and Debbie who was out for the night with the boys. “Ma,” Michael said when he got there. “What are you doing here?” “This is Mikey, Daphne,” Justin said as he threw his arm around Michael’s shoulder. “He’s a little bit whiny but he grows on you.” “Fuck you!” Michael hissed pushing Justin’s arm away. “Michael,” Debbie chastised him. “He started it,” Michael pointed out. “This place is empty,” Brian said as he stood next to them. “You can always leave,” Emmett told him. “I’ll be right back,” Justin told them and went to the bar. “Hey, Brian,” Daphne said smiling at him. Brian smiled at her. He kissed her on the cheek and she blushed. “How are you doing?” “Good,” Daphne told him. Brian nodded. “Here you go,” Justin said coming back with a few beers his hands. He handed one to Debbie, one to Emmett and one to Daphne. He even got one for Michael. Then he took a sip of his own beer and walked away. “I guess you’re a painting on the wall to him,” Michael said. “You can have mine.” “That’s okay,” Brian said. “He knows I can afford my own drinks,” he told them and left to get something. He didn’t care if the blond was playing childish games and choose to ignore him. Daphne sighed and went after Justin. “What do you want?” Justin asked when he looked back at Daphne. “I’m talking here, with...what’s your name?” “Richard,” the guy told him. “With Richard,” Justin said. “What are you playing at?” Daphne asked. “You totally ignored Brian.” “He’s a fucking asshole,” Justin said. “I really can’t believe I became friends with him.” “You’re so in love with him,” Daphne muttered. “That’s why you’re acting like this.” “Sure thing, Daphne,” Justin said sarcastically. “Now that you discovered the big secret could you leave me alone? I said I would bring you to Woody’s I never said I would spend the whole night with you.” Daphne looked at Richard. She rolled her eyes and moved closer to the blond. “He’s just a baby.” “Mmm,” Justin looked at her and licked his lips. “Just how I like them.” “Who was that?” Richard asked. “My best friend,” Justin told him. “How old are you?” “Eighteen,” Richard said. Justin got closer. “I’m going to kiss you.” Richard’s heartbeat accelerated and he closed his eyes as soon as Justin’s lips were on him. “Come on,” Justin said pulling the teenager with him. They got in the bathroom and Justin walked with Richard to a stall. He locked it and then attacked the guy’s mouth. “Oh god,” Richard moaned when Justin grabbed his ass and pulled him close. Their hard cocks rubbed against each other. “I want to fuck you so hard,” Justin told him in a husky voice. Richard threw his head back. Justin attacked the teen’s neck. He unzipped Richard’s pants and pushed them down along with his underwear. “I’ve never done this,” Richard muttered. Justin kissed him. “I’ll be gentle.” Richard found himself being turned around. He gasped when he felt Justin’s fingers at his hole. “Relax,” Justin told him. “You’ll like it. The lube will warm up.” Richard’s eyes closed and he pushed back against the blond. He was feeling like he just flew into heaven. Then it was all gone. Justin undid his pants and quickly put the condom on his hard cock. He placed it at Richard’s entrance and started to push in. “Oh god!” Richard yelled. “Take deep breaths,” Justin told him as he held him by the hips. Richard was paralyzed and he was trying to get away from Justin. Justin held him steady and pushed in all the way. “Stop,” Richard muttered. “It’s going to go away, promise,” Justin told him and waited. After a few seconds Richard tried to straighten out. Justin pulled back a bit and pushed back inside. “Fuck!” Richard hissed in between pain and pleasure. Justin pulled out almost all the way out and pushed inside. He rotated his hips to make sure to rub the guy’s prostate. “Of fuck, oh fuck, oh fuck,” Richard chanted. “Told you,” Justin grinned a bit and got in to a comfortable rhythm. He didn’t want to get out of control with Richard. He wanted the boy enjoy his first time. “Oh please,” Richard had his palms resting against the wall. He used it to push back into Justin. Justin grabbed the teen’s cock and started jerking him off. Richard started moaning and yelling while he splashed his cum on the wall. Justin closed his eyes as Richard’s hole spasm around him. He pulled back and then inside the quivering hole. Then he entered oblivion. “Are you okay?” Justin asked when he pulled back. “Yeah,” Richard told him. Justin threw the used condom on the toilet and flushed it. They got cleaned up and got out of there. “You were so fucking great,” Richard told him smiling. “Thank you.” Justin just nodded and walked with the boy to the bar. “Want a beer?” “Yeah,” Richard told him. Justin was standing across Brian. Brian smirked and mouthed ‘had fun?’ to the blond. Justin turned his back on the man and pretended like he wasn’t there. “Want to play pool?” Daphne asked. “Emmett’s teaching me.” “We’re going to Babylon,” Justin said giving the beer to Richard. “Thanks,” Richard told him. Justin looked at his friend. “Are you coming with us?” “Fine,” Daphne told him and waited for them to finish their beer. “Okay, let’s go,” Justin said grabbing Richard with him. Daphne walked over to Emmett. “We’re going to Babylon.” “We’ll go there in a bit,” Emmett said. “Let me finish this game with Teddy.” Justin waited for Daphne outside of Woody’s and when she got there they walked to Babylon. Once at Babylon the music surrounded them a the three of them danced for a while. Then Justin took Richard to the backroom and Daphne waited for them at the bar. “We’re back,” Justin told her. Daphne shook her head. She had been watching the blond all that time. She knew him like the palm of her hand. “I have to go,” Richard said suddenly. Justin arched a brow. “I have school tomorrow,” Richard told him. “My...professor is giving the class a test.” Justin nodded slowly. “Can I see you again?” Richard asked. “If you see me around I won’t mind if you come to say hi,” Justin told him and kissed him. Richard gave him his biggest smile when they pulled away from each other. Then he turned around and left. “I bet he’s still in high school,” Daphne told him. “Probably,” Justin laughed. “I remember those times.” Daphne smiled briefly. “It’s late,” Justin told her. “Do you have to work tomorrow?” Daphne asked him. “I quit,” Justin told her. “What?” Daphne asked. “Why?” “I’m making more money just painting and drawing,” Justin told her. “And I can’t stand someone telling me what to fucking do.” Daphne knew it was true. She was surprised that Justin had lasted so long. “Do you want to go home thought?” Justin asked as he looked around the dance floor. “Sure,” Daphne said. “I didn’t see him either.” “I’m going to pretend like you didn’t say that,” Justin told her. He waved at Emmett, who had gotten there a while ago, as he passed him by. “Pretend all you want,” Daphne laughed. Justin threw his arms around her shoulders. “I hate you sometimes Daph.” Daphne laughed and they made their way out of Babylon. That’s when Brian bumped into them. “Watch out, asshole!” Justin hissed well aware of whom he was talking to. Brian looked at Daphne. “I’m sorry. Forgive me?” “Of course,” Daphne told him. Then Brian kept on walking. Justin opened his mouth to say something but held back. He couldn’t believe that Brian was now ignoring him. “You two are like kids,” Daphne said. “We’re not,” Justin disagreed. “Let’s just go,” Daphne said getting out of the place. Justin looked back at Brian who had his back to him. He narrowed his eyes at the brunet and then followed his friend. *** And I know that way under, you feel it too And I know that you are just like me with Someone disappointed in you “I said I was fucking coming!” Justin yelled as he walked to the door. “It’s you.” “Yeah,” Craig said. Justin left the door open and walked to the kitchen. He looked in the fridge for some juice. “Do you want anything?” “No,” Craig told him. “What do you want?” Justin asked. “To invite you to the house,” Craig told him. He looked around the place. Justin eyed him as he served himself a glass of juice. “What for?” “Your mother misses you,” Craig frowned a bit when he came across to a nude painting; one of a man. “I bet,” Justin said drinking his juice. He looked at his watch and frowned. He was supposed to meet up with Daphne about an hour ago. He shrugged and put the glass on the sink. “We do, Justin,” Craig told him. “We want to have dinner with you. That’s all.” Justin shook his head. “It’s not going to work out.” “Why not?” Craig asked. “You or I or fucking life is going to find a way to screw it up,” Justin told him. “Don’t be so pessimistic,” Craig wanted to win his son back little by little. He knew that his little boy was still there somewhere inside the man that was now standing in front of him. “Okay, I’ll be realistic,” Justin said. “You’re going to fuck it up.” Craig grimaced. “You have no respect for me?” “I guess you threw it all away and I used to give it so freely,” Justin muttered. “What a shame.” “I admit that I made some mistakes,” Craig said. “Dad,” Justin just wanted to be left alone. “Could you go? I’m not going.” “This is what I hate about your life,” Craig told him. “You have turned yourself completely against us.” Justin stared at him. “That’s not true.” “It is,” Craig’s voice rose up a notch. “You’re the one that can’t accept me how I am!” Justin told him his voice echoing in his home. “I don’t think that drinking and fucking so many men is what anyone would want for their kids,” Craig told him. “God knows if you’re doing drugs.” “I have to cope somehow,” Justin retorted. Craig shook his head. “I’m so disappointed in you.” Justin’s lips formed into a thin line, mostly because all he could think of saying was ‘fuck you’ again and again. He didn’t think he would sound all that wise acting like a teenager. He felt disappointed in his father too. He thought that they were supposed to love you no matter what. “What do you think you’re doing?” Craig asked when Justin walked away from him. “Leave me alone, Dad,” Justin said, he needed to get out of there. “I have to go.” “We haven’t finish talking,” Craig pointed out. Justin was scratching under his left eye as he grinned. His father didn’t give up that easily after all. “You want me to go to the house and I’m not going. You have to open your eyes and see that I’m not you.” “What?” Craig shook his head. “I don’t want you to be me.” “Why not?” Justin asked. “You want the perfect son so Daddy is proud and zero disappointments,” the words tasted bitter in his mouth. “Just like your relationship with your own father.” “It’s not like that,” Craig said. “My father wanted a different life for me and it didn’t go that way.” Justin looked at his father. “Did he make you miserable?” “Oh yeah,” Craig laughed remembering when he was younger and fought with his father all the time. “Great,” Justin said as he reached the door. “It’s family tradition.” Craig frowned and opened his mouth to say to Justin that this was his house but stopped. He let his son go and then closed his eyes. A tear escaping him knowing that he would never get to change the blond just like his own father never could change him. Now it was his turn to deal with that and accept Justin like he was. *** When you drink it makes you angry When I drink I want you more and more and more “You drink like a fish,” Brian said as he sat next to Justin. “Fuck off,” Justin told him. “So what happened now?” Brain asked. “What makes you think that something happened?” Justin waved at the bartender for another drink. “You’re getting drunk,” Brian pointed out. Justin just stayed silent. He didn’t want to deal with Brian at that particular moment. “Who is driving you home?” Brian asked. “Since when the fuck did you decided that talking to me sounded like a good idea?” Justin asked. “I thought that I didn’t exist for you.” “I can see you clearly now,” Brian told him. Justin drank the last of his whisky and got up. “I can’t drive myself home perfectly okay.” He paid what he owed and started walking away. Brian went after him. He sighed when Justin and him where in front of the blond’s Jeep. Justin let the keys drop to the floor and Brian picked them up. “Give them back,” Justin slurred. “I’ll drive,” Brian told him. “You’ve been drinking too,” Justin spat out. He knew that neither one of them should be driving. But at that moment all Justin cared about was that he didn’t want to be sitting in the Jeep next to Brian. “I drank less that you,” Brian opened the door. “Get in.” Justin climbed in the Jeep. “Keep going,” Brian said nodding towards the passenger’s seat. “This is my car!” Justin shouted. “I’m not playing, Brian.” “Move your butt!” Brian hissed back and pushed Justin. When he finally god inside he drove out of there. “What about your car?” Justin asked after a while. “No one is going to touch it,” Brian told him. Justin kept quiet. He hated when Brian thought he could tell him what to do in his life. “Here we are,” Brian told him parking the Jeep. “This is the loft,” Justin muttered. “I know,” Brian told him getting out. He walked to Justin’s side and helped the blond get out of the Jeep. “I don’t want to be here,” Justin didn’t think he would be able to say no to the brunet. “Just until you can drive,” Brian said. “Are you going to tell me what’s wrong?” “Nothing,” Justin told him and walked towards the end of the elevator. “I’m your friend, you know,” Brian bit his lower lip and shrugged. “Maybe I could help.” Justin stared at the brunet. “I...I was talking to my father.” “Oh,” Brian hated the way that Justin got when Craig was involved. He should have known. It was the same when he had contact with Jack. “What did he tell you?” Justin shook his head. “It’s the fact that I’ve realized that I’m a total disappointment to him.” Brian walked over to Justin. “Fuck that. You’re fucking wonderful.” Justin got away from Brian and lifted the doors once they arrived at their floor. Justin walked to the metal gray door. Brian took out his keys and opened it. “I’ll just go sit here,” Justin said as he sat on the sofa. He felt desperate and trapped being there. He got up and walked to the mini bar. “Justin,” Brian said sternly. “Don’t.” “Fuck off,” Justin hissed. Brian walked over to him and grabbed the bottle away from the blond brusquely. Justin tried to reach for it. “Don’t be a fucking asshole!” Brian pushed him away with one arm. Justin growled and pushed Brian against the wall. “Are you going to hit me, Sunshine?” Brian asked. “Don’t call me that!” Justin yelled. “Why?” Brian asked coming really close to Justin’s face. Justin took a deep breath. Brian’s breath on his face was lethal for him. He felt his cock hardening and he tried the best he could to control himself. Brian didn’t try for any sort of control. He just kissed the blond. His free arm wrapped around Justin’s waist and he started to push them back. Along the way he managed to put the bottle in some kind of surface before he kept pushing them into the bedroom. Justin moaned and his fingers wrapped around Brian’s hair. He knew he should be pulling back but it felt so good. He didn’t give a fuck as to what they were doing; he just went along with it. “Fuck,” Brian hissed as he fought with his pants. He felt Justin’s fingers helping him. Then they moved to Justin’s pants. They each took off their shirts and then stopped and looked at each other “You’re nothing but an asshole!” Justin hissed. “Fuck you Justin,” Brian told him. Then they were back to kissing each other and moaning. Justin turned them around and started kissing Brian’s neck. He sucked Brian’s nipple into his mouth making Brian tremble under him. He pulled back and crawled towards the bowl of condoms. Brian took the opportunity to turn them around. Justin bit Brian’s chest and the brunet moaned and pulled back. Justin got on top of him again. Brian watched him open the condom and he couldn’t stop him. He wanted Justin however he could get him. Justin pulled Brian’s legs up to his shoulders and positioned himself at the man’s entrance. He pushed inside of him not stopping. “Fuck,” Brian’s body tensed. Justin stopped and stared at him. His head slowly moved towards Brian’s. He kissed the brunet slowly, his tongue slipping inside Brian’s mouth. They moaned into the kiss as Justin’s hips moved slowly. He closed his eyes losing himself in Brian. Brian didn’t want the feeling to be over. He felt his cock trapped in between them and he fought to keep control. He opened his eyes and stared at Justin. He knew the blond was everywhere inside of him. Justin was part of him, his mind, his heart and he couldn’t stop it. “Ahh,” Justin’s face was now on Brian’s neck. He wanted to stay inside of Brian forever, just disappear inside the brunet. One of his hands came behind Brian’s neck and he started to fuck Brian harder. “Fuck me,” Brian hissed as his arms wrapped around the blond. The two of them exploded at the same time. Justin feeling the condom to capacity while Brian’s cum hit both of their skins. “Jesus,” Justin dropped on top of Brian. “Fuck!” Brian stayed quiet. “I have to go,” Justin said as he rolled away from Brian. He got rid of the condom and got up from the bed. Brian sat up and watched the blond grabbing his clothes. “Stay.” “What the hell for?” Justin asked mad as hell. “You’re still drunk,” Brian told him. “I’m fine!” Justin shouted. “I’m sorry,” Brian told him. “We shouldn’t have done this.” “I know,” Justin told him. He walked to the living room with his things. His hands were shaking as he put his clothes on. He felt like he was going to explode at any minute. Brian walked over to where Justin was pretending like he didn’t care one way or another if Justin left. The truth was that he was dying to hold Justin in his arms and didn’t want him to leave. “Are you sure you can drive?” “I fucked you,” Justin told him putting his shirt. “Did that just fine!” Brian glared at the blond. “Then get the fuck out.” “Fuck off,” Justin told him and walked to the door. He looked back at Brian and wanted to punch him. He shook his head and left. Brian stayed there feeling very cold. He took a deep breath and turned to take a shower. He wasn’t going to care about what had happened between them. *** And everyone here knows, everyone here Is thinking about somebody else Brian entered Woody’s and saw Michael right away with some guy. He walked over to them with a smirk in place. “Brian,” Michael said when he saw his friend. “Who is this, Mikey?” Brian asked as he put his arm around Michael’s shoulder. “Who are you?” David asked. “None of your business,” Brian told him. “Brian,” Michael whined. “This is David. He’s my date.” “You’re into old men now?” Brian asked looking at Michael. “Don’t listen to him,” Michael said, the words hissing out of his mouth. “He’s drunk.” “And high,” Brian added. “You just got here,” Michael pointed out. “I was at other places,” Brian told him. “Hello boys,” Emmett said as he came towards them with Ted. “David these are my friends,” Michael said. “Emmett and Ted.” “It’s nice to meet you,” Emmett told him. Brian rolled his eyes and turned his back on them and faced towards the bar. He asked for a beer and that’s when he heard Justin’s voice. He turned around and saw Justin kissing Emmett on the lips. “How are you doing?” Justin asked. “I’m great,” Emmett told him. “And you?” “Fantastic,” Justin’s eyes landed on Brian. They stared at each other for a few seconds before Michael got in their line of view. “David this is Justin. He’s one of Brian’s tricks but he never went away.” “Yes,” Justin said grabbing David’s hand to shake it. “I’m the one that got fucked by him and got to fuck him. Something that Mikey always wanted and still dreams of.” “Fuck you,” Michael told him. Brian grinned and turned his back on them again. He loved Justin’s sense of humor and how he would never let anyone step all over him. “Brian, tell him to get the fuck away,” Michael hissed. “It’s a free country, Mikey,” Brain told him turning around with a beer in hand. He walked over to Justin and gave it to him. Justin took it. “Thanks.” “Don’t we get drinks too?” Michael asked mad. “Well,” Brian said. “Emmett and Ted have drinks and you have a date to buy you one.” Justin grinned and drank from his beer. “Justin!” Richard said as he walked over to the blond. “Hey.” Justin turned his head to look at the teen. He smirked at him. “Well, well, well.” “And who the fuck is this?” Brian asked as he looked at Richard. “My stalker,” Justin said as he looked at the teen. Richard swallowed and stayed close. “How have you been?” “Good,” Justin told him. “You said hi, now you can run away.” Brian was staring daggers at Richard. He wanted the man to be gone. “Look,” Justin looked at the teen. “I’m not going to be your boyfriend or anything like that. So what could you want from me?” “To fuck,” Richard smiled. Justin’s cock twitched and smirked. “You’re kind of cute.” Richard smiled from ear to ear. “Aren’t you a little young?” Brian asked. “You know how it is,” Justin said grabbing Richard by the belt. “Out with the old, in with the new.” Brian was beyond pissed. He walked away pissed as hell and stopped when a guy made a bee-line for him. They exchanged a few lines and disappeared. Justin had watched it and was angry but he didn’t let it show. “Well boys. Have a good night. I’m sure going to.” “I can’t stand him,” Michael said. “He’s alright,” David told him. He thought about what Justin had said and wondered if it was true that Michael wanted Brian. “Let’s go to Babylon,” Michael said. “I don’t know,” David told him. “I don’t go to those kind of places anymore.” “Come on,” Michael smiled, “it’s going to be so much fun.” David nodded and gave in to Michael. “Bye guys,” Ted told them. “Have fun,” Emmett waved. “I don’t think that’s the guy for Michael,” Ted said to Emmett. “Oh,” Emmett finished his drink. “Why is that?” “Uh, he’s too old,” Ted said quickly. “I’m sure that’s it,” Emmett smirked. “What are we going to do?” Ted asked. “We’ll go to Babylon in a while,” Emmett looked at Ted. “Don’t you think all of this was funny?” “What?” Ted asked. “Well,” Emmett said. “David is pinning away for Michael who in turn wants Brian who wants Justin. Richard is pinning away for Justin who wants Brian and none of them are together.” “That’s so fuck up,” Ted said shaking his head. “I’m going to the bathroom.” Emmett nodded and watched him go. He smirked because he kept to himself that Ted was craving Michael and that he particularly wouldn’t mind getting a piece of David.