I know I've been gone for sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo freaking long. I know!!! I'm sorry guys. School and work and no internet sucks big time. I'm so happy that I came home and I had the internet and the chapters back from my beta. I'm going to post two of them. I owe you guys a lot of chapters. Tons os them. Trust me. I'm working on it. I hope you enjoy this. Thanks to my betas Helen and Beth.
Justin came into the room and slammed the door shut. “He’s gone!” Brian turned to look at Justin as he lay back on the bed. “You got to say goodbye.” Justin got in the bed and his face scrunched up. “I’m sorry,” Brian told him as he sat up and caressed Justin’s face. “Let me make you feel better.” Justin felt Brian’s hands on him but he wasn’t reacting. “Jus,” Brian whispered. “Look at me.” Justin looked at Brian’s face. “I miss him already. It’s not fair.” Brian licked his lips and kissed Justin’s neck. “It will be okay. If you’re a good boy maybe one day I’ll take you to see him.” Justin pouted. “I won’t have sex with you ever again.” Brian scoffed as he caressed Justin’s arms. He pushed Justin’s hair back and sighed. “You don’t really mean that.” “I hate you,” Justin hissed. “Don’t touch me!” Brian pushed him back and got on top of the blond. “You’re mine, remember!” Justin turned them around and then got off of Brian quickly. “If you come anywhere near me I’ll stab you in the balls!” He hissed and took out a knife. Brian frowned. “Who the fuck gave you that?” “Sam,” Justin said. “I’m going to strangle him,” Brian hissed as he got up. “What the fuck was he thinking?” “He said it was for my protection,” Justin muttered. “Against me?” Brian asked angry as he put his shirt on. “Where are you going?” Justin asked. “I’m going to have a long talk with him,” Brian said. Justin put the knife away and sighed. “Brian, I’m not going to stab you.” Brian stopped and turned around. “You couldn’t even if you tried.” “What if you were sleeping?” Justin asked. “You would kill me in my sleep?” Brian asked raising a brow. “I don’t think I have it in me to do that against anyone,” Justin pointed out after a while. Brian walked over to Justin and caressed Justin’s face. “I think you’re so wonderful. My little angel.” Justin smiled. “I’ll forgive you.” “You will?” Brian asked arching a brow. “If you let me fuck you,” Justin told him. “Excuse me?” Brian asked taken aback. Of all the things he thought Justin could have said that wasn’t anywhere in his mind. “Come on,” Justin said hugging Brian to him. “I haven’t done that ever.” Brian pulled away. “Brian,” Justin said when the brunet pulled away from him. “This isn’t a negotiation,” Brian informed him. “You don’t owe me. You don’t get to tell me what to do?” “I didn’t tell you,” Justin hissed. “I was asking you. I thought we could share that. I thought you and I were...god! Never mind!” he yelled and ran out of the bedroom. He reached the deck and hoped Brian didn’t follow. He couldn’t stand to see him. “Hey,” Michael said. Justin looked at the man. “Hey.” “Are you okay?” Michael asked. “It must be hard parting from your best friend.” Justin nodded. “It will be okay,” Michael said. “You can write him.” Justin sighed. “It won’t be the same.” “It will be better than anything,” Michael replied. “Do you know Brian very well?” Justin asked the dark haired man. “Yeah,” Michael said. “Better than anyone.” Justin felt jealousy rising in him. “Oh,” he muttered. “He really loves you,” Michael whispered. “And I know he might have a weird way of showing it but that’s Brian.” “He won’t,” Justin said but stopped himself. “He doesn’t want to open up with me.” Michael looked at the blond. “Well, you have to be patient. In time he will tell you everything you want to know. He will share his heart with you. He’s afraid.” “Of what?” Justin asked. “Of being hurt,” Michael answered. Justin shook his head. “I would never hurt him.” “Justin, you don’t know that,” Michael said. Justin didn’t know what to say. It was true, he knew he had done a lot of things that had put Brian on edge and when that happened Brian would retaliate and only because the brunet was hurt. And the only reason he was staying there was because he was a hostage. He would have been long gone by now but he would be back knowing Brian was there; only that the brunet wasn’t seeing it like that. “You’re young,” Michael whispered. “You guys are going to have a lot of disagreements.” “He treats me like a property,” Justin muttered. “I thought I meant more. I want...” “You want to mean more,” Michael said. “And you do. And one day when you less expect he will show you.” “Are you saying he would let me go?” Justin asked hoping. “I didn’t say that,” Michael told him. Justin ran his fingers through his hair. “I don’t understand anything. Why did this have to happen to me? Why?” Michael shrugged. “I can’t answer that.” Justin felt like he was walking in a labyrinth without exit. “It will be okay,” Michael assured him. Justin looked into the sea. He didn’t think it would be okay. Everything he tried came to bite him back on the ass. He had managed to get his friend home but he felt so alone and with no one who could understand him. He only had Daphne now and he didn’t want to let her go, yet he knew he had to find a way for her to go home. “Hey,” Brian said wrapping his arms behind Justin. Justin closed his eyes. “I’ll leave you guys,” Michael said and walked away. “Are you okay?” Brian asked. “Are you still mad at me?” Justin shook his head. He turned around and hugged Brian tightly. He realized that he had Brian. And he was grateful. *** Brian laughed and pushed James away. “Fuck off,” he told the man. James ran over to Daphne and picked her up. “James!” Daphne yelled as he carried to the beach. “Help me Justin!” Justin was about to run to her when he was picked up by Brian. “Brian!” he protested. Brian carried him away from James and Daphne. “What are you doing?” Justin asked. “Let me go.” Brian put him down on the sand and got on top of him. “Never,” he whispered. Justin caressed Brian’s face. “Is that so?” “Yes,” Brian answered and kissed Justin’s neck. He reached for Justin’s cock. “Brian,” Justin gasped. “Don’t start.” Brian grinned as he pulled back. He kneeled in front of Justin and said, “They can’t see us.” Justin opened his mouth but nothing came out as Brian’s lowered his trunks in one swift move. He closes his eyes and his hips arched as Brian gripped his cock. “Look at you,” Brian muttered. “So decadent.” “Brian,” Justin moaned as Brian’s limb fingers stroked him. “I need you.” Brian let go of Justin’s cock and grabbed the blond’s legs. He pulled them around his waist and started kissing Justin. Justin kept rutting his ass against Brian’s crotch. “Tell me what you want,” Brian said. Justin groaned in frustration. “I want you to fuck me.” Brian smirked. “Take it out.” Justin quickly reached for the button in Brian’s jeans. He then undid the zipper and didn’t lose any time in pulling Brian’s hard member out. He licked his lips as his fingers touched Brian’s pre cum. “Taste it,” Brian instructed him as he grabbed his cock. He watched as Justin licked his fingers. The brunet put the tip of his cock at Justin’s entrance and stopped. “Brian, please,” Justin said pushing his hips up. Brian smirked and pushed inside the blond a bit. “Do you want it to hurt?” “Yes,” Justin groaned. “They could be watching,” Brian told the blond. Justin opened his eyes and looked around. He was caught in between going and stopping what they were doing. He looked around trying to search for signs of someone else close by. Brian laughed a bit and pushed further inside the blond. Justin closed his eyes and gripped Brian’s arms. He swallowed hard and pushed his hips closer to Brian letting the man push more into him. “It hurts.” Brian nodded and rubbed Justin’s belly. “You like it like this.” Justin’s ass squeezed the man’s dick. Brian groaned feeling the ring of muscles gripping him for dear life. “Oh god, yes,” Brian groaned. He kept pushing inside his blond and waiting for the smaller man to adjust until he was buried to the hilt. “Fuck me,” Justin groaned. Brian started moving slowly. He could feel the hot sun hitting his back as the front was scorched by Justin’s touch. He kissed Justin slowly at first, just like his movements. Then the pace started to pick up. Justin gripped Brian’s arms tightly. He felt every caress and every kiss drowning him while his body sunk into the sand. He loved the feeling of having Brian posses him like a mad man. Their hips pulling and pushing against one another was addictive. He didn’t want to stop and if they had to it would be just to do it all over again. “Ahh,” Brian groaned as Justin’s pulled on his hair. He started clawing the blond’s skin. “Brian,” Justin said. “I’m going to cum.” Brian started pounding inside the blond. He was so close. He grabbed Justin’s cock at the base as he orgasm. “Bri,” Justin moved his head from side to side. “Please.” Brian pulled out of the blond and pushed two fingers inside. He started to rub his captive’s prostate. “Oh god,” Justin hissed as the sensations consumed him. Brian wrapped his mouth around Justin’s cock and added a finger to Justin’s hole. The blond arched up and spilled his seed into the captain’s mouth. Brian enjoyed every bit of it. Then he pulled away and looked at Justin who had his eyes closed. Justin’s chest rose and fell as he tried to catch his breath. Brian smiled and bent down. “Hey beautiful,” Brian said in a husky voice. Justin opened his eyes and smiled. “Hey.” Brian smirked and bent down to kiss the fair skin man. When he pulled away Justin was hard again. “I...wow...” Justin managed to say. “Not very articulate of you,” Brian pointed out. “I have sand everywhere,” Justin complained. Brian laughed and shook his head. “You’re a mood killer.” Justin glared at Brian. “I have sensitive skin.” “Jesus,” Brian groaned. “Stop complaining.” Justin huffed as he tried to reach for his trunks. “Hold on,” Brian told him. “Turn around.” “Brian,” Justin muttered as he looked around. “Anyone could have seen us and I don’t want to be naked anymore.” “So?” Brian asked as he leaned forth to capture Justin’s lips in a kiss. “I like seeing you naked.” “Mmm,” Justin groaned and pulled away. “I don’t want anyone to see us.” “Fine,” Brian told him and let the blond get dressed. When they were walking they searched for James and Daphne but they weren’t there anymore. “They must have heard us and ran away,” Brian drawled. “Fuck you,” Justin hissed. “God. No way.” “You’re such a freaking prude,” Brian told him. “I’m not,” Justin answered. “Is just...it’s Daphne.” Brian laughed. “Whatever.” They walked to where they had left the boat but it was gone. “Now what?” Justin asked. “Don’t worry,” Brian said as he pulled Justin into his arms and started kissing his neck. “They can’t leave without me.” “You’re so sure of yourself,” Justin muttered as his eyes closed. He smiled and wrapped his arms around the taller man. He loved when Brian was so attentive with him. “Mmm,” Brian muttered and pulled away when he heard the motor boats. “Ah, there they are.” Justin looked at Michael and Ted that were coming to get them. “James send us,” Michael said when he reached Brian and Justin. “Get in,” Brian said to the blond. The four of them were silent on the way back to the yacht. When they were aboard Ted was staring at Justin way too much. “What?” Justin asked. “Nothing,” Ted told him. “Why do you keep staring at me?” Justin asked him. Ted shrugged. Michael laughed. “Brian is going to take out your good eye.” Brian arched a brow. Michael liked his lips and said, “Is just that Justin has such a nice butt.” “Excuse me?” Justin asked shocked. “We could see everything that was going on in the beach from here,” Michael said. “You two looked hot,” Ted told them. Justin opened his mouth in shock. He started turning red. Brian started laughing as he looked at Justin. He turned to Ted and shook his head. “If I catch you looking at him, I’ll take your good eye out!” he said and then walked away. “You’re turning as red as a tomato,” Michael pointed out. Justin shook his head and left as well. He didn’t know what to say. He wished the sand had swallowed him whole. *** Brian laughed as Justin kissed him again. “I’m tired,” Justin muttered. “Let’s go to bed.” “I have things to do still,” Brian informed him. Justin started pouting. “That’s not going to work,” Brian assured him. “Although you look very innocent and it makes me hot.” Justin grinned. “Brian,” Michael said coming into view. “I have the papers you wanted.” Brian playfully hit Justin’s butt to tell the blond to get off of him. Justin groaned and got up. “Go to sleep,” Brian said to the blond. “I’ll be there soon.” Justin nodded but knew that he would fall asleep before Brian got there. He wondered what the hell Brian worked so hard on. He didn’t think it was that hard to be the captain of a ship. “You two looked pretty cozy,” Michael said. Justin who was still hearing what they could say hid away and listened. “Yeah right,” Brian said. “When are you going to get tired of him?” Michael asked as he sat down. “Pretty soon,” Brian answered. Michael started laughing and shaking his head. Brian was glaring at him. “Brian,” Michael said smiling. “As your best friend, tell me the truth.” Brian looked at Michael and arched a brow. He smiled slowly and let his head dropped on Michael’s shoulder. “I love him,” he confessed. Michael smiled. “I knew it.” “Shut up!” Brian hissed but grinned nonetheless. Michael chuckled. “Brian has finally fallen in love.” Justin was smiling nonstop. “If you repeat that I’m going to castrate you,” Brian told him in a deadly voice. “Oh please,” Michael said as he put the papers in Brian’s lap. “You and I both know that I so could take you.” “You wish,” Brian replied grabbing the papers and sitting straight. “I think he doesn’t like it here,” Michael pointed out. Brian frowned. “He will get used to it.” “Brian,” Michael warned. “You’re acting like a spoil brat.” “He’s the spoil brat, remember?” Brian said and tried to focus on the papers he had in his hand. “What if it happens like with Farrell?” Michael asked. Brian stopped what he was doing and looked at Michael. “Shut the fuck up.” Justin wondered who the hell Farrell was. “It won’t be the same,” Brian said. “And why not?” Michael asked. “Because he asked too much from me,” Brian told his friend. “With Justin is different.” “Why?” Michael asked. “Because...because I love Justin,” Brian confessed. “Farrell was just...I cared for him but it wasn’t the same.” Michael thought about it. “Okay, so it doesn’t have to do with love this time. You’re privatizing Justin from his family and his life.” “I’m his...” Brian stopped talking and shook his head. “Stop it.” “If you want to be his new life you can’t keep him here,” Michael pointed out. Brian was getting angry. “I thought you were my friend.” “I’m your friend,” Michael said. “That’s why I’m telling you this. “You have money Brian. You don’t have to stay here any longer. You two could go and have some kind of life.” Brian stayed quiet. “Look,” Michael said. “I can see that with him is different. You smile from the heart and I know that you’re happy.” Brian frowned. “You haven’t been happy in so long,” Michael whispered. Brian sighed. “What if I let him go?” Justin closed his eyes and only wished. “What if I do that and he never comes back?” Brian asked. Michael licked his lips. “Then he doesn’t love you.” “And what if I can’t live with that?” Brian asked then. Michael frowned. “God, Brian. I don’t know what else to tell you.” “Then shut the fuck up and don’t say anything. I’m happy this way. I know that all he has to do is get used to this kind of life. I would get him all the things he wants and buy him his stuff so he can draw or do whatever he wants. I’ll even let him see his friend again. I’ll do anything but I won’t let him go.” Justin closed his eyes and sighed. He kept on walking then. He didn’t want to hear anything else. He could hear the certainty in Brian’s voice. He knew that all he did would be in vain. He would never get to go home ever again. *** Brian kissed Justin’s neck as they lay together in bed. He sighed with happiness still buried deep inside the blond. They just had entered nirvana and were coming down from it. He was about to pull away but Justin’s hand stopped him. “I like you on top of me,” Justin muttered as he lay on his stomach with Brian on top of him. “Mmm,” Brian acknowledged. “Brian,” Justin muttered. “What?” Brian asked. “Do you love me?” Justin asked Brian stayed quiet. Justin sighed and tried to move away. Brian pulled out of the blond and sat on the bed. Justin got off of the bed and started pacing the room. “Justin,” Brian whispered. “What’s going on?” “Nothing,” Justin spat out. “Why did you ask me that?” Brian asked him. “Because I wanted to know,” Justin replied. “What do you think?” Brian asked. “I think you hate me,” Justin said as he stopped pacing. “How can you say that?” Brian asked and got off the bed as well. “How?” Justin asked as his lips trembled. He had so much anger within him. “How?” he repeated. Brian bit his lower lip. “You keep me lock in here,” Justin hissed. “That’s not true,” Brian answered. “Bullshit,” Justin yelled. “I’m nothing to you. How could you love me? I don’t mean shit to you!” “Stop it!” Brian shouted. “No,” Justin yelled back. “I won’t stop it! How can you love someone when you take their freedom away from them?! How?! Come on, tell me!” Brian kept quiet. “You don’t love me,” Justin said. “I’m nothing but a toy to you!” Brian rolled his lips inside his mouth. He started at the blond and then sat down on the bed with his back to Justin. Justin stayed standing waiting for Brian to do or say something but it never happened. He swallowed hard and started rubbing his hands together. “Brian.” Brian stayed quiet and looking at his knees while he sat there. “Brian?” Justin asked as he got on the bed and kneeled behind the brunet. He put his hands on Brian’s shoulder and felt a slight tremor go through Brian’s body. “I do love you, Justin,” Brian whispered. “I do.” Justin gasped as the truth reached his ears and he pulled his hands away. Brian turned around and kneeled in front of Justin. “Why won’t you let me go?” Justin asked. “I can’t,” Brian told him. “But,” Justin tried to protest. “I can’t,” Brian repeated. “I want you always with me,” the older man muttered. “Won’t you always wonder?” Justin asked. Brian pulled back with a frown. “What do you mean?” “If I’m here because I have to or because I want to,” Justin said. Brian frowned and pulled away from the blond. “I don’t care. You won’t ever leave me. I won’t let you.” Justin felt Brian’s cold words wash over his body. He looked away. Brian bit his lower lip. He walked closer to Justin and kissed him hard. “I don’t have to wonder.” Justin stared at Brian and slowly smiled. “No, you don’t. Not really.” Brian pulled Justin into his arms. “But really, things aren’t that easy, Brian,” Justin pointed out. “Being together involves so many things. It won’t be alright all of the time. You know how weird you are? You’re only thinking about you.” “I’ll make everything be okay,” Brian assured him. “And I’m not just thinking about me. I’m thinking about how happy we’re together.” Justin arched a brow and chuckled. “Weird.” “Whatever,” Brian said smirking and then kissed Justin’s neck. Justin sighed and wondered if they could be happy with the way things were. They had a long way to go and something told him it wouldn’t be always a smooth sailing.