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Justin’s POV
I wake up and Brian is gone. Thank god for small favors. I get up and go and take a shower. I haven’t been out of this room in days and I’m going crazy. When I finish I get dressed and head out. I like this. I’m moving freely. I stop at Brian’s door and think about knocking. I decide not to and just walk inside.
Kevin is jumping in bed completely naked. I shake my head and look at Max that is fucking some guy. I walk closer and know his a fledging. He’s one of Brian’s. What the fuck is going on?
“Daddy got a new boy!” Kevin yells. “He’s not pretty, not pretty at all.”
I walk over to Max and pull him away from the screaming boy.
“What the fuck are you doing?” Max demands from me.
“Leave him alone,” I tell him. “Are you okay?”
“I was!” he yells at me.
“Father already had him,” Max informs him. “I can do whatever I want. He told me I could have him. I’m older. I’m allowed to.”
I see the desperation in his voice and I smirk at him. He has problems because Kevin is older than him and has power over him. Now he’s trying to take it all out on this new guy. This is just crazy.
“Whatever,” I tell him and look at the new addition. “Go get dressed.”
“Who the hell do you think you are?” this idiot asks.
“I’m Brian’s mate,” I spit out at him and it feels good seeing him frown. “Now get fucking dressed!”
“You have to do what pretty says,” Kevin starts chanting then he jumps down and takes Shawn’s arm.
The two of them go to the bathroom. Max pushes me gently with a frown.
“What?” I ask him annoyed.
“What are you doing here?” he asks me.
I really don’t know what the fuck I am doing there. “Why don’t you get dress as well?” I ask him as I sit at the edge of the bed.
I watch him as he moves slowly from one place to the other until he gets everything he needs and gets dressed. I can hear Kevin shouting in the bathroom and I roll my eyes. Also Shawn is screaming at the top of his lungs and I can’t help but smirk at that.
“Now what?” Max asks as he sits next to me.
“Where is Brian?” I ask him.
Maximilian shrugs.
“Who the fuck was that?” I ask getting angry by the second.
I don’t know why but I am so angry that Brian turned someone else. He can’t keep doing that to people. It’s not…right.
“I think his name is Shawn,” Max says.
I shake my head thinking how that guy is only a kid; just a baby. Brian is a pervert! I frown and look at Max who is smiling at me. “What?” I ask him.
“Are you really Brian’s mate?” Max asks.
I frown because I knew that would come back to bite me in the ass. It just felt good saying it to Shawn. So he knows his place is way low than mine and…god, Justin! Where is this coming from? What is happening to me? I feel so different when I’m in power. Why do I like that feeling so much? Whatever, he just pissed me off. Yeah, that’s it.
“Jus,” Max says as he puts his hand on my arm.
I arch a brow because right away I know what he wants. “Don’t even think about it.”
“Please,” he says.
“No,” I tell him yet again.
“But you have so much in you,” Maximilian protest. “Please.”
He’s giving me that look. The same Kevin uses when he wants something from me. God! I lift my wrist to his mouth and he grabs it and starts drinking. He doesn’t do it like Kevin. He takes his time savoring each drop. When I think he’s had enough I pull back. I stare at him wondering whatever happened to my life. The plan was always to get revenge on these beings and suddenly I find that I have two brothers that are linked with me way too strongly for some reason. As much as I want to hate them and abandon them, I don’t want to, I can’t. Jesus! It’s never been like this before. I didn’t care about Ben, or Michael or Melanie or…mmm. I did care about someone else, but he’s long gone. And now I have Kevin and Max to watch out for. I never thought I would feel like this again.
“You okay?” Maximilian asks after I pull my arm away.
“I don’t have clothes,” Shawn says as he comes out.
“Get him something,” I tell Max.
I get up and go get Kevin. He’s staring at the water that’s pooling on the floor. I stare at him until he turns to look at me. He gives me a wide smile and moves out of the shower letting it running.
“No more holy man,” Kevin says to me caressing my face. Then he pulls me into a tight hug.
I sigh and let him hold me like that. I hear Max and Shawn fighting outside and I pull back. “Let’s get you dressed.”
Kevin goes outside and gets his clothes. He puts them on happily which is so weird because he always wants to be naked. I’m starting to see that he’s waiting for something and whatever it is has him excited. Note to self, whenever Kevin gets dressed on his own something is definitely going on.
“Where are we going?” Max asks suspiciously when I start walking with them to the first floor.
“We’re going out for a ride,” I simply say.
It’s the truth. I’m thinking I want to get out of the estate for a few hours and I want them close so I can take care of them. I don’t know if I’m going to be back thought, but they don’t need to know that. I’m almost at the door when Kevin turns around and starts running back up. I go after him and Shawn and Max follows us. I see Kevin standing in front of Brian’s office. We were never allowed to go in there, but I’ve seen it…for some reason I was in there before.
“Holy man,” Kevin sings to me. “Please.”
I sigh and wonder why I can’t say no to him. I open the doors and walk inside. I see Brian sitting on his desk. There about five other vampires inside and they’re not from the family. Except one, I look at him. Marcus looks back with a big grin. I look from Kevin to Marcus wondering what the fuck happened. How is it that Marcus is a vampire now? Kevin turned him, I can feel it. Oh my god.
“Justin,” Brian says slowly. “I’m in a meeting. Take your brothers and leave.”
I’m about to but then one of the men looks familiar. I walk closer and he arches a brow.
“What?” he asks.
“The prophet,” I whisper.
“That’s one of my many names,” he says and chuckles. “What is with him? He’s acting like he doesn’t know me.”
Brian licks his lips and stares at me silently telling me to go.
“Justin, just leave the fucking room,” Marcus hisses.
“Marcus!” Brian yells as he gets up. His eyes are glowing as he glares at Marcus. “Watch out how you speak to my mate!”
Marcus lowers his head and I can’t help but smile. Then it hits me like a train.
I run back with the book in my hands trying to stop this madness knowing something is not right. There is no way in hell that Liam is stronger than Brian. No way! I open my eyes and let the book drop when Liam pushes Brian back making him fall down. Before Brian has time Liam stabs him on the forehead and twists the sword. For a moment I watch as he raises his blade and I know he’s going to decapitate Brian. I react just in time to push him away. I grab Brian’s sword and kill Liam. Then I look down and know I have lost Brian forever.
Before I know what I’m doing I’m jumping up and reaching Liam. He falls back with me on top. I start to crush his throat and he tries to push me away but he can’t. I’m stronger and I know that I’m not imagining things. He did something to be able to take Brian on. “You killed Brian!”
“What is with him?” Marcus asks.
“Justin!” Brian hisses and comes towards me.
He pulls me away from Liam. I try to fight him off but he won’t let go.
“What is your problem?” Liam asks as he gets up.
I see that Brian is wearing a duster and it’s covering his sword. I grab it and attack Liam once again. This time no one comes in time to help this bastard. I do the same thing he did to Brian. When I look up from Liam everyone is looking at me like I’ve committed a sin.
“What have you done?” A man with white hair asks.
“He did this to Brian!” I yell.
Then I stop to ponder what the fuck do I care what anyone has done to Brian. It’s none of my fucking business.
“There is no way, Justin,” Brian says. “I would have never woken up.”
“What?” I ask frowning.
“Liam is never waking up thanks to you,” Marcus says. “He will be like that forever.”
“There are various spells than can bring him back,” the guy with white hair says.
He gets up and walks up to me. I arch a brow and before I have time to reach he pulls me close and bites me. He sucks big gulps into his mouth before letting go of me.
“The first spell,” he says. “It was to make things the way they are. You should have waited a bit longer for it to kick in. You were powerful enough to bring Brian back.”
I frown not sure what he’s talking about.
“The second one…a life for a life,” he mutters. “I don’t understand.”
“What?” Brian asked.
“There isn’t one of us that would do that spell willingly,” he says. “Our kind is too selfish for that.”
“Who the fuck are you?” I ask him.
“I’m Jericho,” he says. “You don’t remember me?”
I shook my head.
“How about Sebastian or Cross?” he asks and points at each one.
They are still sitting down looking pretty bored.
“No,” I say.
“Brian,” Cross says getting up. “It’s best if we leave this for some other day.”
Brian nods and they get up and leave. Marcus and Jericho stay.
“Take him with you,” Brian says to Marcus.
Marcus nods. “I’ll send my men for him,” he says before he leaves.
“Brian,” Jericho says. “Tell me what’s going on? Justin…he should be trapped.”
“I don’t know,” Brian says. “The thing that wanted him took Ben instead.”
“I see, but that’s not what I’m talking about,” Jericho says. “The first spell worked. Things went back to how they were. I think Liam did kill you.”
“What?” Brian asks surprised.
No shit! I’m stunned!
“Yeah,” Jericho says. “Justin turned that back. Like it never happened which means that you got to live and so did Liam. That fight never took place.”
Brian turns to me and shakes his head. “You should have let me die.”
I don’t even know what to say to that.
“Before the first spell was completed,” Jericho says making me and Brian turn to look at him. “He did the second one. That thing works in seconds. They don’t kid around. They came and gave Justin a soul. They can’t take you without one.”
I swallow hard not wanting to believe anything he’s saying. He said that we are selfish. Then why the hell have I done all of this for Brian? Kevin comes next to me and starts patting me.
“Then the first one kicked in,” Jericho says. “Brian woke up to find his mate had a soul.”
“But I didn’t know,” Brian whispers shaking his head. “I didn’t…know.”
“I see it,” Jericho mutters. “I saw what happened that day…he helped them. Justin helped them, didn’t he Brian? It only explains why William was able to overtake you?”
“Pretty killed father,” Kevin says and starts crying.
I see that Max comes to him and hugs him.
“Don’t tell anyone,” Brian hisses.
“He has to be punished, Brian!” Jericho yells.
I’ve been punished enough, thank you very much!
“You know that,” Jericho hisses.
“He’s my mate,” Brian growls.
“It’s against the rules to let him off just because he’s your mate,” Jericho tells Brian. “This can get ugly, Brian. You better kill him or someone else will. Those are the rules!”
Of fuck!! No way! Of fuck! Shit!
“Are you threatening me?” Brian asks.
Jericho smirks. “You don’t want to do this.”
“Let me tell you,” Brian says walking towards him. “If you or anyone comes near Justin, I will end them. No one touches him. And you better keep your mouth shut.”
“Daddy will,” Kevin says smiling as he looks at Jericho. “Shhhh,” he says putting a finger over his mouth.
I don’t know what I’m feeling right now. Brian is sticking up for me. Oh my god. I should be dead for what I did to him. He kept it quiet all this time. Why?
“We’ll talk,” Jericho says before he leaves closing the doors behind him.
“Now is war!” Kevin says when everyone is gone.
Brian frowns as he looks towards Kevin. Then he looks at me and he has this pain expression. “Why did you have to come here?”
“At least we know what happened,” I tell him. “Or part of it.”
I still don’t know how I could have forgotten all of this.
“But he knows about what you did,” Brian tells me. “Fuck!”
I look at Shawn that comes over to Brian. He bats his eyes at him and I want to puke. Then Brian smiles and caresses his face.
“It’s okay mater,” Shawn whispers as he starts rubbing himself on Brian.
What a fucking idiot! I’m having a conversation here!
“Not pretty,” Kevin says. “Not pretty at all,” Kevin shakes his head slightly.
“This is so crazy,” Max says. “Are we leaving or what?”
“Yes go,” Brian tells us. “Shawn stays.”
I glare at the back of Shawn’s head.
“Is okay,” Kevin sings. “He’s not pretty, not pretty at all.”
“Leave,” Brian growls as he stares at me.
“Not even close to pretty,” Kevin keep singing.
“Come on, Justin,” Max says pulling me by the arm. “And shut up, Kevin!”
“Not pretty!” Kevin yells back at Sam.
I’m about to tell him to shut up when I realize what he’s saying. I look at Shawn and something inside of me breaks. There he is. He’s as tall as me, as skinny as me, he’s blond like me, he has blue eyes almost like mine! But he’s not me! Is Brian trying to replace me? Is that it?!
“Can we go?” Maximilian asks.
I stride towards Liam where his body is still laying. I can’t think. I’m so angry and hurt and I want him gone! I pull out the sword that’s still imbedded in his forehead. I walk over to Brian and Shawn and grab him by the arm before I send him flying across the room. Then I push the tip of the sword in Brian’s throat.
“I could kill you right now,” I tell him.
I hate him so much for doing this to me! He can’t replace me! Not ever! God, Justin. Stop it! Just stop it! This isn’t you. That was just a boy. It’s not his fault. Is not!
“Could you?” he asks smiling.
Maximilian throws himself and me knocking me back. He caught me by surprise. That’s all. I get up and Brian is laughing and caressing Max.
“No more,” Kevin says as he sits on the floor. “No more.”
I get up and run over to Shawn who is on his knees about to get up. I kick him hard on the side and he screams in agony.
“Don’t,” Brian hisses from the other side of the room.
I look down at the boy and I smirk. I don’t think it twice as I put my foot on his forehead. He grabs my boot and tries to push me away. As if he had the strength. Then I draw my sword through his neck. He’s body shakes and I can’t help but smirk as his skin turns grayish. It all happens so fast.
“You fucking shit!” Brian hisses and in seconds is in front of me pushing me back. “You little asshole!”
“He’s not me!” I shout for some odd reason and it hurts so much.
Brian arches his brow and I don’t think about anything as I stab him across the chest. He growls and tries to fight me off, but I twist the blade and push him to the side. I kick him hard again and again. I pull the blade out and I’m about to decapitate him but Kevin and Max jump on top of me. Max takes the sword and throws it away before pinning me to the floor with Kevin’s help. They are a bunch of traitors. Then again they don’t belong to me.
“Enough!” Brian yells. “Kevin, take your brother to the bedroom.”
Kevin nods and pulls on Maximilian. The two of them leave the office and I stare at Brian still on my back.
“Why did you do that?” Brian asks.
I keep quiet. Brian smiles and bents down. He picks me up by the neck and with me fighting him or at the very least trying to, he leaves his office. He takes me to my room and manages to tie me to the bed. There were chains under the bed. Next time I’ll look under there and throw them away.
“Is this what you wanted?” Brian asks me.
It’s not. I hate this so much. So much! What was I thinking?! Oh my god! He wasn’t trying to replace me was he? He was doing it for my own good. Oh my god! It can’t be.
“Justin,” Brian whispers. “You haven’t even begun to know the extent of my strength so don’t fight me.”
I try to pull free but can’t. He gets naked and then takes off my clothes and I start crying. My life is such a mess. I don’t know what’s happening to me any longer.
“You’ll never be stronger than me,” Brian assures me. “So don’t fight me, baby. Give into me.”
I froze at that moment. “Brian…”
“Trust me please,” He tells me leaning closer and placing a kiss on my forehead.
“Let me go, Brian,” I beg him. “Please.”
Brian moves to my lips and kisses me. His tongue pushing inside me and I cringe and wait for the worst but it doesn’t come. He pulls away and starts caressing my body. I gasp when he starts kissing his way down my body. Then he reaches my cock and he licks the head. I jump at the sensations. Oh god! This is not happening.
My sire takes me in his mouth and I feel dizzy. I bite my lower lip to keep from screaming. This has never happened before. It’s so good and then he stops and moves away. He gets of the bed and starts pacing. This is the worst kind of torture he can give me. Why the fuck would he just stop? Oh my god! Does he want me to beg?
“Don’t do that, Justin!” he screams. “Lick the blood away, now!”
Ah shit! I do quickly and after a while he comes back to the bed. He turns me around and I start kicking. What can I do? It’s in me to defend myself. It comes natural to me. He caresses my hips and tells me to stop over and over again. When I finally do because it gets tiresome he starts to lick my neck. That feels so good. God, Justin! Don’t! Kick him! Kick him…oh fuck!
He’s licking my back and then he reaches my entrance. He holds my ass cheeks apart as he licks me there. Oh fuck! Oh fuck! He pushes his tongue slowly and starts fucking me. I feel something cold and the smell hits me. He’s using his blood on me. Then he pushes his fingers inside and my body shakes with pleasure.
“Justin,” Brian whispers and turns me around. “Try to relax.”
I don’t know what to say to that. He pulls his fingers away and turns me around. He pushes my legs up and then places them on his shoulders. He cuts his wrist yet again and smears the blood on his cock. I start crying because I want this. I want to feel him inside of me and yet I don’t. I hate him and he disgusts me. Then he’s pushing and it hurts so much.
“I know,” he whispers. “I know.”
After a while it goes away and it’s okay. No is not…it’s so fucking amazing. I want to touch him. I want to push him away. I want to cum and I want to die. He’s doing something to me. I’m not like this. I’m not. It’s not fair. Why does he have this power over me? Since when? God!”
“Fuck,” Brian growls. “You’re so tight. Always,” he mutters.
He starts going faster and faster and then he touches my prostate and I lose this fight. Yet again.
“Justin,” he says with a smile. “Did you like that?”
“No,” I lie.
He arches a brow and starts playing with my nipples. His hand lowers down and he gathers my cum in his fingers before taking them to his mouth. He stares at me for a long time and then his nails start to dig into my side. He comes closer and kisses me and is so good. I feel his fangs for a slight second before he retracts them. But it’s too late. There is blood coming from my tongue and he moans and shakes on top of me.
“Ah,” I hiss and try to squirm away from that deadly grip.
This is so wrong. Why won’t he let go?
“Brian?!” I ask as I look up.
“I’m sorry,” Brian mutters and kisses my lips. He bites down and my body shakes. “Sorry,” he says again when he pulls back.
“Can you go?” I ask him.
“I’m sorry,” he repeats and then I see it in his eyes. He’s not going to be able to control himself. He’s already gone.
“Brian, please don’t do it,” I tell him. “It hurts.”
Oh god. This is not happening to me. That’s when I realize that he still hasn’t cum. He’s buried deep inside of me, his cock is hard as steel. He couldn’t cum without being his usual self. He tried to be nice for me. I don’t know what to do. But apparently he does. He pulls out of me and starts biting me everywhere he can. He caresses my hips and smiles. He bites me where my thigh and hip meet and it hurts so much.
“So good,” he says as he starts playing with the blood. His fingers dip into it creating patterns all over my skin. Mixing my cum with my blood makes him go even crazier.
I close my eyes and will it all away. “Stop!” I yell when I feel him entering me hard. Why can’t he be like before?
He starts fucking me hard and fast and I think I’m going to pass out from the pain but I don’t. Then he grabs my cock and starts to work me over until I’m splashing my cum all over us. It’s always the same.
“God!” I yell as I shoot all over myself again.
Brian growls and I feel his nails burying themselves on my back. Then his fangs descend on my neck. My blood fills his mouth and with a growl that comes deep from his throat his body shakes and he shoots deep inside of me. When he pulls away he gets from the bed but doesn’t untie me.
“Brian,” I say before he leaves.
“I’m sorry,” he says. “I tried. I really did try. Please,” he begs.
I’m not sure what he wants now. When I look at him I see the tears threatening to come out. It can’t be! Then I feel my own tears threatening to come out as well.
“Can you untie me, please?” I ask.
My body hurts everywhere.
“No, Justin,” Brian says. “You killed my childe. You had no right.”
“But he’s not me,” I tell him.
“No,” he says caressing my face.
“Why did you do it?” I ask him.
I hate that I sound so heartbroken.
“I don’t know,” he whispers over my ear and then moves away.
“This is not fair, Brian,” I tell him.
“Ever since I found out about what’s happening to you I’ve tried my best, Justin!” Brian yells. “I have left you alone. Can’t you be a good little boy and do the same. Show some fucking respect for me and my childes. No you have to come looking for trouble…like always! And now is all my fault? Well…you have to pay for what you’ve done. No excuses.”
“That’s so unfair!” I yell even thought I know is true.
Brian hasn’t bothered me or hurt me since he found out that I had a soul. Since Marilyn told him that it really hurt me. And I screw everything up. God!
“I’ll come back later,” he whispers.
“I don’t want you to leave me alone!” I hiss at him.
“What?” He asks.
“Nothing,” I tell him. “Fuck you! Fuck you, Brian!”
Brian stares at me for a few seconds before he nods and walks out of the room. This is so fucked up. I fight with my restrains but I can’t break them. I stare towards the window and part of me really doesn’t care that he’s going to come again. The other part is infuriated with him. And as the night descends in this part of the world I make a few resolutions. I’m leaving as far away as I can, as soon as I can. Away from him so he can’t find me ever again. So he can’t hurt me like he does. So he can’t touch me like he did before he turned crazy on me. Before I forget he’s a monster.