Brian grabbed an apple from the fruit bowl and a small knife so he could slice it.  Then he went to the living room where Isaac and Justin where. 

“I can do more,” Justin grunted. 

“No,” Isaac said.  “It’s enough.”

Justin was sporting his perfected pout.  “It’s not fair.”

“What do you want?” Isaac asked.  “Do you want my job?”

Justin shook his head.   “You know I don’t.”

Brian sat down Indian style in front of them.  He started eating the apple as he watched them. 

“It’s only been twenty minutes,” Justin complained.  “I can do more.  We have so much time left.”

“And we’re going to train,” Isaac said raising his voice.  “But we’re done trying to walk.”

“I took a few steps!” Justin yelled.  “You know I can walk.  I can stand on my on!”

“You were sweating bullets,” Isaac pointed out.  “You looked like you were in pain.  I said that’s enough for today.”

“I hate you!” Justin yelled.

Isaac smirked.  “Sure you do, Jus.”

“I’m going to tell Daphne how mean you are,” Justin told him.  “She’ll hate you.”

“I’ll fuck her silly and she’ll love me,” Isaac threw at the blond.

Brian laughed as he shook his head.

“Brian, tell him something,” Justin hissed.

“Oh, leave me out of it,” Brian said.   “I’m here for moral support only.”

“Weren’t you going to work?” Justin asked as he sat on the floor with Isaac’s help.

Brian shrugged.  “I felt like staying.”

Justin looked at the brunet and arched a brow.  “What?”

“What?” Brian asked.

Justin smiled at the brunet.  He mouthed ‘I love you’ and then put his attention back on Isaac.

“Uh, hold on,” Isaac said as his phone rang.  He went to see who it was and smiled.

Justin turned to look at Brian.  “That must be Daphne,” he whispered to the man.  

Brian laughed at that and kept eating.

“Okay,” Isaac said.  “Sorry about that,” he said and sat down to go over the exercises with Justin.

Right in the middle of it the brunet joined the guys and helped the blond.  He was having fun with Justin even thought it was supposed to be work.  When Isaac left Justin and Brian kept doing a few exercises.  

“Do you want to go out to eat?” Brian asked as he watched the blond.

“Okay,” the blond said lifting and bending his legs up until his knees almost reached his chest.  “Why can’t I walk?  My legs are strong enough.”

“Isaac said it’s because you are learning to balance yourself and all your weight is supported by your feet or something to that effect,” the brunet said and shrugged.  “Are you tired?” the man asked.

Justin shook his head.  

“I’m tired,” Brian said.

Justin laughed as he stretched his legs.  “You haven’t done anything.”

Brian straddled Justin’s hips putting all his weight on his knees.  He bent forward and kissed Justin’s neck.  He licked the smooth skin and reached up to suck Justin’s earlobe into his mouth.  

“Brian,” Justin gasped as his hands shot up to hold Brian to him.  “That feels so good.”

“Does it now?” Brian asked smiling.

“Kiss me,” Justin moaned.

Brian did and felt himself getting harder than he was already.  Justin’s lips were so soft and his wet mouth was doing wonders to him.  He still couldn’t believe it sometimes.  He only wanted the blond and it never got old, only better.  Justin’s tongue was warm and it was delicious.  He pulled away and took off Justin’s shirt.

Justin started to unbutton the brunet’s shirt.  He caressed the man’s chest and played with Brian’s nipples.  He looked up at Brian who was staring at him with lust.  Justin moved his hands to the taller man’s hips and pushed up.  

“Feels good,” Brian told him.

“It’s not enough,” Justin said.

Brian moved back and took Justin’s sweats off and took his time as he caressed the blond’s creamy skin.  He kissed Justin’s hips and dipped his tongue on his baby’s navel. 

“Brian!” Justin gasped.

Brian kept going down and he started licking Justin’s cock.

“Mmmm,” Justin moaned.  “That feels really good.”

The brunet grabbed Justin’s cock and jerked him slowly.  He watched the blond’s face; he loved to see Justin’s gestures when he gave him pleasure.

“Please,” Justin said.

“Want more?” Brian asked.

“Fuck me,” Justin told him.

Brian swallowed when the blond said that.   “Justin,” he whispered.

Justin opened his eyes and took a deep breath.  He lifted up a bit and rested his weight on his arms.  “I want you.”

Brian looked at the blond.  “Are you ready?”

“I think I am,” Justin said.  “I mean as long as I don’t have to walk anywhere, we’re good.”

The brunet smirked and kissed Justin again.  “Let’s get off of the floor.”

Brian stood up and got rid of his jeans.  He helped Justin stand up before he put a hand behind Justin’s knees and back and lifted him up.  Justin smiled and wrapped his arms around the brunet’s neck.  He kissed Brian’s jaw while he caressed his face.  

“You’re so hot,” Brian said after he laid Justin on their bed.  

Justin smiled and felt himself blushing.  “Come here and stop wasting time.”

Brian made sure that he grabbed the lube and the condoms.  His body blanketed Justin’s and they kissed and moaned while they rutted against each other.

“Are you okay?” Brian asked realizing he just let go completely.

“It’s okay,” Justin said when Brian tried to pull away.  “If you do something that hurts me I will tell you.”

Brian nodded and went back to kissing Justin.  Slowly he parted the blond’s legs and his mouth started moving down to Justin’s neck.  Justin’s body was in fire as Brian’s mouth kissed him everywhere.  His mouth was open as he sucked in air; he could feel his heart pounding in his ears.  Their bodies were sticking together with sweat and pre cum. 

When Brian’s hot mouth encased him he buckled wildly.  His head thrashed from side to side as he said Brian’s name again and again.   Brian moaned around Justin’s cock.  It felt heavy and hot and it was filling his mouth just the way he liked it.  The sweat salty taste was perfect.  The brunet grabbed a condom and opened before putting in on.  He opened the lube one handed and coated his manhood.  

“No,” Justin had hissed his displeasure when the brunet had stopped sucking him.

The separation was short lived as Brian’s tongue licked Justin’s entrance.  He pulled one of Justin’s legs on his shoulder and he parted the blond’s cheeks.  The younger man moaned and quivered as he pulled Brian up by the hair.

“Justin,” Brian protested.

“Fuck me, please,” Justin told him. 

Brian kissed him hard as his hands caressed Justin’s side.  

“I need you now,” Justin told him.  “I really…ahh,” he moaned when he felt the man’s slick finger entering him.  He rode Brian’s fingers while he begged for more.  Then his wishes came true when he felt Brian’s fingers leave him.  He knew what was coming next.

“I need you too,” Brian whispered.  

Justin lifted his right leg and wrapped it around Brian’s hip.  “More.”

Brian pushed inside the blond and found resistance.  He watched as Justin’s face scrunched up in pain.  He kissed the blond’s closed eye lids and then his nose, his left cheek, the right side of Justin’s jaw and then kissed the blond’s mouth.

Justin put his hands on Brian’s face and kept him there.  Their tongues danced around each other.  Brian pushed again and stopped.  He kept kissing his man as his hands held onto the blond’s sides.  He pushed again one last time and he was buried inside his husband.

“My baby boy,” Brian muttered against the younger man’s lips.

Justin moved up and captured Brian’s mouth again.  He moaned and Brian grabbed Justin’s other leg to wrap it around him.   He started moving slow with one hand on Justin’s left thigh and the other one holding on to the bed for leverage.  

“Brian, Brian, god, yes,” Justin moaned.  

Brian’s face was at the crook of Justin’s neck.  He was breathing deeply, his eyes closed, concentrating on not losing his control.  It had been so long since he was the one to make love to Justin.  He wanted the blond to enjoy it as much as possible.

Justin opened his eyes and gripped Brian’s torso to him.  The man moved his head so that he could kiss Justin.  When Brian opened his eyes Justin’s were dilated.  He kneeled and grabbed the back of Justin’s knees.  He pushed them towards the blond and his movement became more erratic.

“God yes!” Justin grunted.  

Brian closed his eyes as he moved faster.  “Justin…you’re so…fuck…fuck.”

“I love you,” Justin told him.

Brian knew he wouldn’t last any longer.  He sat back on his haunches making sure he had a tight hold on the blond.  Justin’s lower body lifted up and the brunet’s cock went deeper inside of him.

“Mmm,” Justin groaned.

“Are you okay?” Brian asked.

Justin nodded as he put his hands on the headboard to push himself towards Brian.  Brian started moving again.  He wrapped one arm around Justin’s waist and pushed all the way inside.  He didn’t move then.  He only rotated his hips knowing that he was rubbing against the blond’s sweet spot.

“Ahh,” Justin groaned and his hand moved to touch himself.  

Brian bit down on Justin’s shoulder and the smaller man shook in his arms.  The younger man splashed his seed in between them.  

“Oh god,” Justin gasped.

Brian pulled out and pushed inside a few times before he was exploding inside the blond.  His body dropped on top of his husband as he gasped for air.  He lifted his head up and kissed his blond.

“Don’t move,” Justin said when Brian tried to pull away. 

Brian caressed Justin’s neck.  “I’m not going anywhere.”

Justin smiled as he wrapped his arms around the brunet.  “I’m hungry now.  We should order in though.”

The brunet brushed his nose against Justin’s and laughed.

***

Brian opened the door to the loft and walked inside.  He called the blond a few times but he got no answer.  He put his briefcase on the desk and opened it pulling out a magazine and a few folders.  He turned around when the door opened again and Emmett and Justin came inside.

“Where were you?” Brian asked.

Justin pushed his chair towards him.  “I was upstairs with Emmett.  We were looking around to see what we wanted to do with the loft.”

Brian nodded.

“Hey, Bri,” Emmett said smiling.  “What are you up to?”

“You’re home early,” Justin said.  “I was going to cook and surprise you.”

“I wanted to be home,” Brian said.  “I brought some of my work with me.”

“What the fuck?” Emmett asked grabbing the magazine from Brian’s desk.  “Oh my god!  He looks so hot!”

“What are you doing?” Brian asked pulling the magazine away from Emmett.

“That’s my boyfriend,” Emmett said.

Brian frowned.

“Let me see,” Justin said snatching the magazine.  “Mmm, yummy!”

Brian pulled the magazine away from Justin.  “That’s…what do you mean yummy?”

Justin giggled and threw a kiss at Brian.

Brian sighed and looked at Emmett.  “That’s Drew Boyd.”

“I know,” Emmett said.  “And?”

“He’s a football player,” Brian said. “He’s an MVP.”

Emmett bit his lower lip.  “Why didn’t he tell me that? I thought…well, seeing him there I thought he was a model or something.”

Justin arched his brows.  “You didn’t know what he did?”

Emmett shrugged.  “We hadn’t come to that part of the conversation yet.”

“Which means they still haven’t finish fucking their brains out,” Brian said smirking.

Justin laughed at that.

“I’m calling him right now,” Emmett said.

“Hold on,” Justin said.  “What are you going to say?”

Emmett lowered the phone and sighed.  “I don’t know.  What should I say?”

Brian shook his head.  “This is not my business,” he said walking away.

Justin laughed.  “Brian thinks he’s all tough pretending not to care.  He will be asking me about everything once you leave.  He worries about you.”

Emmett smiled.  “I know.”

Justin stared at the magazine.  “He’s really something.”

Emmett crossed his arms and pulled the chair from under the desk so he could sit down.  He played with the zipper of his shirt and then stared at Justin.  “I don’t know what to think.”

Justin arched a brow. “What do you mean?”

The taller man shrugged.  “He’s…I know he’s in the closet, but why didn’t he tell me about this.  I mean…was he afraid that I would tell everyone or that if we broke up I would out him?”

“I can’t tell you that,” Justin said.  “You’re going to have to ask him.”

Emmett nodded and dialed Drew’s number.  

Justin watched silently.  Emmett didn’t say anything to Drew except that he needed to see him right away.

“I’m going to go.  I’m sorry, we’ll talk about everything later,” Emmett said meaning the remodeling of the upstairs loft.

“Don’t worry about it,” Justin assured him.  

Emmett got up and kissed Justin goodbye.  He yelled ‘bye’ to Brian and left the loft.  When he was in the elevator Brian stopped him.

“What?” Emmett asked.

“Are you okay?” Brian asked him and shifted his weight from one foot to the other.  He was rubbing the back of his neck and looking at the floor.

Emmett moved forward and kissed Brian’s cheek.  “I’m fine.”

Brian nodded and watched him go before he returned to the loft.  He closed the door and found Justin had moved to the kitchen and was reaching for one of the pans under the sink.

“Can you believe it, Brian?” Justin asked. “Emmett is going out with a famous person.  I mean not that Emmett can’t hot guys but he knows a famous person.”

“I meet famous people all the time,” Brian told him.

Justin nodded absently and frowned when he couldn’t see what he was looking for under the sink.  He looked around the kitchen and pouted.

“Justin, what are you doing?” Brian asked.

Justin looked up and smiled.  “I’m cooking, Brian,” he said like the brunet was dumb.

The man smirked and let it go.  “Do you need any help?” Brian asked him as he rolled his sleeves up.

The blond was about to tell him that he didn’t but smiled instead.  “I would like that.”

Brian bent down and kissed him.  “You’re fantastic.”

Justin couldn’t believe that he could fall more in love with the brunet each time.  He pulled Brian down by the tie and kissed him.  It was a sweet quick kiss but it held a promise of things to come.

“So what were you thinking?” Brian asked.

The blond wasn’t sure what he was going to make.  But he knew he wanted it to be something that he could feed Brian with his own fingers.  It was going to be something that would drip with sauce so his tongue could clean it in case there were any accidents.  He looked up and only smirked at the brunet. 

***

“What do you think about this?” Cynthia asked putting a file in front of Brian.

Brian was about to open it when his cell phone rang.  He looked at it and saw that it was Evan.  “Hello?”

“Brian,” Evan said.

“What’s wrong?” the brunet asked his voice cracking.  He had felt like he was falling when he heard the blond.

“I’m…it’s nothing,” Evan assured him.

“Tell me,” Brian whispered and looked at Cynthia before he nodded towards the door.

Cynthia understood right away.  She turned around and left Brian alone.

“It’s…I did what you said,” Evan said.  “I was myself with her.”

“What happened?” Brian asked him.  

“She told me…that she didn’t like me that way,” Evan said and bit his lower lip.

Brian pinched his nose.  “You told her you liked her?”

“No,” Evan said.  “I kissed her.”

Brian smirked and shook his head.  “Just like that.”

Evan shrugged.  “She told me that we were friends.  Then she invited me to go to the movies with her on Friday.  I don’t know what to do, Brian.  She’s so weird.  I mean she touches me all the time.”

Brain didn’t even want to ask.  “What do you mean she touches you?”

“Like she caresses my face and is always kissing my cheek and then when we’re walking she hold my hand and when we’re sitting down she moves really close and…” Evan said but Brian stopped him.

“Okay, okay,” the brunet said.  “I get it.”

“I think she likes me but…there is this thing,” Evan said.

Brian knew he wasn’t prepared to deal with things like that.  “Um…what thing?”

“It’s not important,” the boy said.  “Should I go out with her anyways?”

Brian didn’t know what to say.  “Uh…do you want to?”

“Well, I don’t know,” Evan said.  “I feel weird now.  It’s like…it was great kissing her.  It gave me…this…feeling in my stomach.”

“As long as it stays there,” Brian muttered to himself.

“What?” Evan asked.

“Nothing,” Brian said.  He remembered being twelve so clearly.  

“I…I did feel bad,” Evan whispered.  “And I kind of prayed to God for him to change her mind.”

Brian wanted to laugh but he refrained.  “If you feel uncomfortable being around her you shouldn’t go.”

“I want to go,” Evan said.

“Then why are you asking me?” the brunet asked him. 

“I wanted someone to tell me it was okay,” Evan muttered.

“Hey little girl,” Someone said as they entered Evan’s room.

“Get out of here!” Evan yelled.

“What are you going to do, princess?” the other boy asked.

“This is my room!” Evan yelled.

“What the hell is going on?” Brian asked.

“Don’t be such a girl,” the boy said smirking.

Evan got up and started pushing the boy out.

“Stop it,” he hissed and punched Evan on the arm.

“You’re an asshole, Adam!” Evan yelled and kicked the older boy in the knee. 

“You shit!” Adam yelled.

Brian heard the yells and something breaking.  He heard the phone falling on the floor and Evan screaming.  Then complete silence.  “What the hell is going on there?” Brian asked but no one was answering him.  

The brunet got up quickly and was heading out of his office to go to the boy when Evan was back on the phone telling him he was okay.

“Who the hell was that?” Brian asked.

“That was Adam,” Evan said.  “He’s an asshole.”

“What is he doing there?” Brian asked not sure who Adam was.

“He is Ian’s kid,” Evan explained.  “He’s so stupid.”

“Are you okay?” Brian asked.  “Did he hit you?”

“He punched me but I kicked him,” Evan said snickering.  “He’s really a pussy.”

“Evan!” Brian hissed.

“Sorry,” Evan said rolling his eyes.

Brian went back to his desk and sat down.  He leaned back on his chair and laughed. He didn’t even want to begin to think when he and Justin had their own kids.  He was going to go insane. 

“Brian,” Evan said.  “Can I stay with you guys for a while?”

Brian smiled.  “Sure.  Tell Molly and I’ll pick you up when I get out of here.”

“You’re the best!” Evan shouted before he hung up.

The brunet pouted and slowly smiled.  He knew it would be worth it.

***

“I’m really happy that you’re doing this for us,” Melanie said happy that she and Lindsay were going to be able to celebrate their anniversary.  They wouldn’t have to worry about their kids being with strangers.

Brian rolled his eyes.  “Whatever.”

Lindsay smirked and kissed Brian on the cheek.  “If anything were to happened let us know.”

“Will do,” Brian told her.  

There was a knock on the door and Melanie went to open it. 

“Is Justin home?” Lindsay asked.

“No,” Brian said.  “He’s waiting in the car with Evan.”

“Gus is going to be happy to see him,” Lindsay said as she picked a teddy bear and gave it to Brian before reaching for another toy and putting it inside the bag.

“Okay,” Brian said.  “I think he has enough toys.”

“Hey, Brian,” Michael said smiling.

Brian nodded towards the man.  

“Let me go get her and her stuff,” Melanie said running up the stairs.  

“How are you?” Michael asked.

“Oh,” Lindsay said to no one in particular as she remembered Gus’s stuffed tiger.  The boy adored it so she went up to get it.

“I’m okay,” Brian answered.

“That’s good,” Michael informed him.

Brian didn’t know what was with the man.  “How about you?”

“Things are great,” Michael told him rolling his lips inside his mouth before he broke out into a big smile.

Brian smirked.  “You okay?”

“Yeah,” Michael said. 

“Here we go,” Melanie said as she gave Jenny Rebecca to his father and then her bag with her things.

“You’re getting heavy,” Michael said tickling his daughter.

The girl laughed and then looked towards Brian.  She waved at him before her attention was back to her father.

“It was good to see you, Brian,” Michael said before he left.

Brian frowned not sure what was with the man.  “Where is Gus?” Brian asked.  “And tell Lindsay to stop gathering things.  Anyone would think she’s giving me the kid forever.”

Melanie laughed.  “I’ll go see what’s taking so long.”

Brian waited and minutes later Lindsay was there with Gus.  She gave him to Brian and smiled widely.  The brunet shook his head and picked everything before he walked with his son to the car.

“I can do it,” Evan said after Brian had put the boy on his car seat.

“Put this on your legs,” Brian said.

Evan grabbed the bags and shoved them on the floor of the car.  Then he gave his attention to Gus again.

“I saw Michael,” Justin said when Brian got in the car.

Brian sighed.  “Yeah?” he asked starting the car.

“He…he looks happy,” Justin said.

“I noticed,” the brunet commented as he pulled away from the curb.  “He has either moved on or totally gone insane.”

Justin laughed as he put his hand on Brian’s thigh.

The brunet interlaced his hand with his husband’s.

“He looked…relaxed,” Brian said.  “He didn’t look like he hated me.  That’s good.”

“Yeah,” Justin mused.

“Hey, I’m hungry,” Evan called from the back seat.

“Me too,” Gus added.

Brian turned to look at Justin.  “No please, let me guess.  So are you,” he said smirking.

Justin gave him a big smile.

***

Michael opened the door to his apartment and smiled at Ben who was holding what it looked like a hundred roses.  He grabbed them and smiled as he smelled them.  

“Do you like them?” Ben asked as he kissed the man on the cheek.

“They are beautiful,” Michael told him. 

Justin then Jenny Rebecca started crying.  She was calling for her father over and over again.

“Can you hold this?” Michael asked pushing the flowers back into Ben.  Then he quickly went to get his daughter.  He came back with her in his arms.  “This is my girl.”

“She’s beautiful,” Ben said, he had put the flowers on the table.

Michael smiled.  “She’s a bit scared.  She was sleeping and woke up and everything was dark.”

Ben nodded and went over to them.  He tickled her and she laughed and extended her arms towards the man.  “Is she always this charming?” 

“You have no idea,” Michael told him as he moved away to be able to put the flowers in water.

Ben bounced the girl in his arms.  She laughed and played with the necklace that Ben was wearing.  The shiny metal object around the black leather was calling to her attention.

“Have you eaten?” Michael asked.  “I was cooking.”

“Not yet,” Ben told him.  

“Good,” Michael said as he moved towards Ben.  He picked his daughter up and walked her to the living room.  He put her down and pulled open the chest he kept behind the sofa.  All of her toys were there.

“Ahh,” the girl shrieked when Michael pulled out a doll for her.

Ben smiled as he watched father and daughter. 

Michael stood up and went over to Ben.  He wrapped his arms around the man and kissed him hard.  

“That feels really good,” Ben said smiling.  He pulled Michael’s body closer to him.

“We can’t,” Michael said.  “For one thing I’m cooking and another she’s still up.”

“I’ll refrain from jumping your bones then,” Ben said and smiled.  “At least until we eat and she’s safely tucked away.”

Michael laughed and kissed Ben again before he moved to the kitchen.  Ben and Michael played with the girl.  The younger man would move to the kitchen from time to time to check on the food.  Then they sat down to eat and after that Ben watched the girl while Michael cleaned the table.

“She needs to be changed,” Ben called out.

“I’ll be there in a minute,” Michael said.

“I can do it,” Ben assured him.  

Michael told him where everything was.  When he was finished in the kitchen he went to the bedroom. He found Ben on the bed with Jenny in his chest sleeping peacefully.  He smiled and moved to grab his camera.  He always kept it handy to take pictures of his girl.  He snapped a few pictures before he put the camera away.

“You two look amazing,” Michael said as he leaned against the doorframe.

Gently Ben put the girl in the bed and got up.  He walked up to Michael and kissed him hard.  Michael pulled Ben with him to the living room.   Ben laughed as he and Michael stripped down.  Then Michael stopped and walked sensually to the sofa knowing Ben was watching him.

The blond smiled and moved towards him.  He was about to sit down with Michael when one of the framed pictures in the coffee table caught his attention.  “Whoa.”

“What?” Michael asked frowning.

Ben grabbed the picture and showed it to Michael.

“That’s Jenny and her brother,” Michael said smiling.

“Gus,” Ben said.

Michael frowned and got up from the sofa. “Yeah…how did you know?”

Ben didn’t know where to start.

“Ben,” Michael said.

“This is the boy I bought Captain Astro for,” Ben pointed out.

“You said he was your nephew,” Michael said.

“Well that’s what I call him,” Ben said.  “You see.  Evan is my cousin but because of the age thing he’s always called me uncle.  And then when I met Gus it was just as well.  He’s Brian’s kid and I love him to death.  He’s just loveable.”

“Hold on a minute,” Michael said frowning. “You know Brian?”

“He’s my cousin’s husband,” Ben explained.

“Justin!” Michael shouted.

Ben nodded slowly.

“Oh my god!” Michael said sitting down.  “I’m going to be sick.”

“What?” Ben asked as he tried to touch Michael.

Michael pulled away and stood up.  “Don’t.”

“Michael,” Ben complained.

Michael stared at Ben.  “Is this some kind of joke?”

“What?” Ben asked getting up as well.

“Brian…” Michael said and stopped.  “He’s…he’s my ex.”

“Fuck,” Ben hissed.  “Fuck!”

“I can’t believe it,” Michael said.  “I can’t believe that fucking asshole is your cousin.”

“Don’t call him that!” Ben yelled.

“It’s the truth,” Michael told him.

Ben shook his head.  The last thing he wanted to do was fight with Michael. 

“I guess you’ll leave now,” the dark haired man said.  He started crying even thought he didn’t want to.

Ben went over to him and cleaned the tears away.  “Why do you think I’m leaving?”

“Because of what I think of Justin,” Michael said.

“Justin is not a bad person,” Ben said.  “My cousin is pretty wonderful and I know he didn’t mean to hurt you.”

“But he did, Ben,” Michael said and more tears came.  “You don’t know how horrible it felt, Ben.  I felt like shit.  And it hurt so much.  I told him things about myself and Brian and all that time…they were together.  You don’t have a clue how that felt.”

Ben sighed and pulled Michael to him. 

“I really loved Brian, Ben,” Michael said.  “And I just…it was so horrible.  I was always there for him and I was patient and it didn’t matter what he did…he would always come home to me.  You know what it is like to wake up and find the man you love betraying you; that all the shit that you went through together in the end didn’t matter.  That you are not enough to be loved, do you know what that is like?”

Ben shook his head.  He kissed Michael’s forehead.  “I’m sorry.  I’m sure none of them meant for it to happen like that.  When…you…when you fall in love you do things without thinking.”

Michael pulled away.  “I’m sorry,” he said cleaning his face.  “I didn’t want to get all emotional on you.”

Ben watched the man and he was angry at his cousin.  He couldn’t believe it.  He sighed and let it go.  He just didn’t like the idea of anyone hurting Michael.  Slowly he pulled Michael’s head towards him.  He gave him a small smile.

“Ben?” Michael asked.

“I would never hurt you Michael,” Ben told him.

Michael smiled and they kissed.  He wrapped his arms around the older man and thought he could fall in love with Ben.  Something told him it would be okay if he did.  It didn’t matter to him that Ben was Justin’s cousin.  His cared more about Ben than he despised the blond.