Speeding Chapter 8
Stay In The Now

Author’s Note:  This is for Helen who has been so wonderful and has taken time to become my beta.  I love her!  Thank you doll!  Oh, and I hope I corrected all the corrections right.  Yeah, that’s how stupid I am.  So any mistakes are my own, she did a fabulous job, and as you readers know, it was probably a hard one.  Love for Helen.  And yeah, I don’t know where this chapter came from.  But my mind is already writing more.  Love you all.-Rory

Brian opened the doors to their bedroom and took Justin's hand leading them into Paradise. He could feel Justin trembling under his touch and hoped that it was because of the excitement and not because of fear. "Do you like it?" He asked, looking back at Justin who now stood stock still in the center of the great room.

Justin looked at Brian and pulled the taller man close to him. His eyes twinkled with more tears as he stared into Brian's. "It's the most beautiful thing that I've ever laid eyes on Brian." Justin said softly. His fingers brushed along Brian's jaw gently.

The true meaning of those words was not lost on Brian. He could see the love that Justin had for him so clearly. He watched as those bright eyes turned darker with lust. His knees weekend as he felt Justin's fingers travel from his jaw line to his neck. He looked down, focused on the finger that pressed itself in between his pecks lightly and made an invisible trail down his stomach and stopped finally at the waist of his pants.

Justin looked up at Brian, the rest of his hand joining his fingers as he tucked it inside the material. Brian was not wearing any underwear and Justin's dick leapt at the thought. His nails lightly scratched at the sensitive skin that was covered in curly soft pubes. Justin moaned aloud when his fingers dipped lower and encountered the head of Brian's weeping dick.

"Uh.." Brian grunted out feeling his balls tighten. He grabbed onto Justin's shoulders and lightly pushed the boy away from him. "Justin, I almost fucking came." Brian said in a bewildered and embarrassed tone.

Justin moved closer to Brian and smiled. "And we don't want that do we?" He said sexily.  "Not until you’re buried deep inside of me." 

Justin brought his hand and up to his mouth and started to lick at the precum that coated his fingers.

Brian's eyes nearly bugged out of his head and it was all he could do to not cum or throw Justin onto the California King and fuck the shit out of him. "You are going to pay for that Justin."

His voice unrecognisable. He took the freshly licked hand in his own and led Justin over to the bed.

Justin giggled. "Wait, wait, wait!" He said and planted his feet on the hardwood floor. 
Brian was going mad. He wanted Justin so badly he could swear that he would die if his cock weren’t buried inside him in the next five minutes. But if Justin wanted to wait he would, even if his dick fell off. "What Justin?" Brian asked, trying to keep an even tone.

Justin smiled shyly. "I just, I wanted to take the nice duvet and sheet off first. They look so beautiful and expensive and I didn’t want them to get messed up." After Justin said it, he felt really stupid and started to blush and look down, shuffling his feet.

Brian smirked. It seemed that the blond had the same ideas about curling up together after they made love as he did. "It's okay Justin. I want to hold you all wrapped together under the silky sheets and down comforter later too. When I picked them out, that's what I thought of." Brian admitted, now feeling a little shy himself.

Justin looked up and kissed Brian's cheek lightly before stepping up to the top of the bed and tugging the comforter and sheet down. Brian soon helped him and tossed the thick comforter over onto the soft leather chaise lounge. "I want to undress you." Brian told the blond as he came closer to him.

Justin gulped. He was so horny, and the rumble in Brian's voice was making his dick leak at the vibrations. "Please." Justin said, staring loving into his soon to be lover's eyes.

Brian smiled softly. "You are the sexiest man I have ever laid eyes on." He told Justin, reveling in his words when he saw Justin visibly shiver with the anticipation.

Justin moved closer to Brian. 

"Please Brian, if, if you don't take them off now, I'll have to do it for you." He nervously laughed.

Brian smiled devilishly. "We wouldn't want that, would we Sunshine?" His voice a whisper of longing.

Justin shook his blond head and trembled when he felt Brian's fingers at the hem of his sweater. He closed his eyes when the fabric was pulled over his head and opened them shouting in surprise as Brian's mouth latched on to his left nipple and started to suck greedily on it. "Ahh.." He couldn't contain his moaning as Brian lavished his sensitive nub and then went to work on his other. 

Brian licked and sucked on Justin's body as though it was his life source. The creamy taste of Justin's tit was driving him wild. He could suck on it all day and never get enough. When he felt Justin's fingers pulling his hair he released the swollen nipple and grinned up at his boy with a smile reminiscent of the Cheshire cat.

Justin couldn't wait for Brian to undress him. He smiled down at the brunette who was now on his knees and sliding Justin's stretch khaki's down his once slim hips to lay in a puddle at the floor. He could barely see his cotton covered erection under his belly, even if he was well endowed. But he did feel Brian palm his erection in his large warm hand, making him cry out and uncontrollably buck into the touch. But the hand was quickly taken away, Brian's smiling face looking up at him in amusement. "Shhh... settle down Justin." He heard the man say softly.

Brian could tell that Justin was trying to not loose it, shit he was!!! So, he quickly disposed of the white briefs and stepped away from Justin to take his blonde's full beauty in. When he did his mind started to reel. Memories forgotten by alcohol and drugs plowed through his mind at a painful and frighteningly pace.

Justin felt completely vulnerable. As much as he did the night he was with Al. 'No, no! Don't 
think about him!' He chastised himself and rubbed his hands over his eyes. 'That man used you. Brian would never do that.' When he opened them again he nearly fainted and had to step back and hold onto the bedpost. 

Brian's mind was buzzing with memories but they did not cloud the image of Justin stumbling. Panicked, Brian raced over to Justin's side and put his arms around the small blond. "Justin!" 

Justin pushed Brian away from him. "No! Get away from me." He yelled. He couldn't do this! 

"Justin, please, baby what's wrong." Brian tried to hold Justin again. His mind didn't understand the visions it portrayed, but unbeknownst to him, Justin was having very similar visions that he understood all too well. And it was breaking his heart.

"Fuck off!" Justin shouted and pushed Brian hard this time. He scrambled to get on top of the bed, his breathing rapid and his skin a flush with anger and betrayal. "Please!!!" He screamed, so much different than the plea he had given only minutes before.

Brian had tears in his eyes. He had no idea what he had done wrong. At the most he thought that maybe he had given Justin a funny look, he couldn't even process what his memories were before he saw the blond nearly fall, and they had been pushed to the far recesses of his mind. All he could do is do as his love asked and back away, no matter how much it hurt him.

Justin was on the bed shaking. His knees were drawn as far up to his chest as he could get them to go with the belly he was sporting. His skin was crawling because he kept seeing in his mind the night of passion he shared with the stranger. He was crying like a little baby, loud heart wrenching sobs. He felt dirty and foolish and so fucking scared.

"Please Justin." Brian tried, retrieving the young man's clothing. He neared the bed with them in his shaky hands and stretched his arm out offering them to the boy that looked so young and vulnerable, it scared the shit out of him. "Here baby." He said quietly.

Justin had his head buried in his hands, his tears and snot making webs between his skin as he looked up and saw the caring eyes of the man he loved. "B...b...b...b..rian!" He sobbed out, his shaky pale arms opening and begging the older man to come to him, no matter how scared he was, Brian looked at him with so much love and warmth.

Brian immediately crawled up to the shaking wet boy and took him into his arms. Tears of relief swept from his eyes and down his face into the sweet smelling blond locks his face was buried in. "Talk to me Justin please." He whispered.

Justin closed his eyes and a calm spread through him at Brian's touch. He wanted to tell 
Brian the details, but he was so terrified that the older man would leave him, or think that his heart was still with the stranger. "I...I. can’t Brian. I..I don't want you to leave me." Justin cried.

Brian's heart broke. He squeezed Justin tightly and ran his strong hands up and down the blonde's naked back. "Nothing could ever make me leave you Sunshine. Nothing. I promise you. I love you too much. But you are scaring the living shit out of me. Please tell me what I did!"

Justin turned his head to Brian's. He couldn't believe what he had done. It wasn't Brian's fault that he had been so stupid and couldn't get over it. It was his own. His heart broke when he saw that Brian was crying too. He ran his hands up to Brian's wet cheeks and wiped the tears away. "It wasn't anything you did Brian." He told him.

Brian looked at Justin in the eyes sternly. "Then tell me what it is." 



(Please review, I'm really interested as to where you all think I am or should be going.  I sorta lost my way with this one for a while, but I'm back with it.)