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the part in italic is Justin remembering.
I still can’t believe that Justin moved out and from what I was told; he is living in some shitty apartment.
I have banned that ‘wanna be’ out of my club. I used the excuse of no blowjobs on the dance floor. But the truth is, the guy is a loser. He thinks he ‘owns’ the place
Which if he really thinks that, he has another thing coming. I am the top dog here and this is MY club. I won’t just sit back and let some blond come in and act like he owns the place. Like some other blond I know. A blond would never be banned.
I’m playing a game of pool, when that certain blond boy who was banned comes over to me.
“What the fuck is your problem?” Brandon asks while his hand grabs the stick.
“Your hands on my stick.” I look down at his hand
“Why’d you ban me from your club?” He asks me, determined to get in my face.
“Because I can. Getting sucked off on the dance floor is a very serious offense.”
“Accept when it’s you.” He snidely remarks.
“Membership has its privileges.” I smile with my tongue in my cheek smirk.
“I think you threw me out because you’re afraid I’ll get the hottest guys.”
“I ‘AM’ the hottest guy.” I tell him matter of factly.
“You mean ‘WERE’.” He looks at me with that look.
“Since when?” I hit the ball.
“Since me. Even the mightiest one day must fall. The king is assassinated. The lion is torn to shreds.” He looks so sure of himself.
“Oh lord. Please spare us from wearisome cliches. Listen, twerp. You think you get to be the best just by showing up and announcing that you are? You have to prove it first.
“I thought I already had?” He looked at me and I wanted to slap the look off his face.
“By picking off a couple of twinks before I got to them? You’re going to have to do better then that.” I think he has me confused with someone else.
“Then how about we pick? Say the 10 hottest guys we can find.” I look at him and smirk, knowing that I can have them done and having my 5th drink by the time he is even on the 6th one.
“And the one who fucks them all first wins.”
“You know the game.” He smiles at me like he has this won.
“I also know the outcome.” I smirk when I see his face.
“I admire your confidence. But they say every star burns it’s brightest just before it burns out.
“Oh, say you win?” I look at him waiting for his answer.
“I get into Babylon. And if you win?” He looks at me.
“I get into you.” I smile at him as he nods his head.
“Ok, so here is what we will do. You get to pick 5 names and I pick 5 names. We put the list together for the 10.” We both agree as we head off in different directions.
The next night we meet up at Woody’s with a couple of names on our lists. I hand him mine and he hands me his.
“Ok, we have to have proof of each one.” I tell him as I unfold his list.
“I agree.” He tells me.
Opening it up, I take a quick glance knowing I wouldn’t have a problem. Then a name popped out to me. His first name is someone very personal to me, someone very special to me.
“What the fuck?” I tell him pointing to the name.
“Oh, he is fucking hot.” I look back down at the name.
“All bets are off.” I tell him as I push him the paper.
“Why Brian, can’t you get the twink?” He smiles at me and I want to fucking knock it off him.
“Anyone but him.” I tell him again, pointing to the name.
“He has been on my mind since the first night I got here. He looked hot standing at the bar.” He winks at me.
“Fuck it, bets off.” I start to walk away as I remember the way it looked on his list.
1. Justin Taylor
And it had stars by it. Fuck that game. No way was I going to let him have my blond twink that I have had for 5 fucking years.
I walk away to get another drink. Justin was on his list. I couldn’t do that to Justin. When I fuck him again, I want it to be on my terms and I want it to mean more then for a game.
^^^^
I saw how Brian seemed to back away after seeing my number one name, Justin Taylor. I wonder what that was about?
I make my way over to the bar when I see a familiar face that I have seen around the blond.
“Hi” I say to him.
“Hi sweetie.” He smiles at me.
“Buy you a drink?” I ask him as he nods his head.
“Cosmo” He tells the bartender.
“I’m Brandon.” I put my hand out.
“I know. You are the new talk of the town. I’m Emmett.” He squeals out happily.
“Nice to meet you.” I hand him his drink as I look around to find Justin walking in with some short brown haired man.
“I see you have an eye?” I look at Emmett who is smiling pointing to Justin.
“Yea, he’s hot. He was on a list of top 10 to fuck.” He looks at me as Justin and his friend walk up.
“Hey Em, I see you have a friend.” Justin smiles out.
“Yea, this is Brandon. Brandon this is Justin and Michael.” I shake their hands
“Nice to meet you both.” I smile as Emmett took my lead from earlier.
“Justin is on a 10 ten list.” I see Justin look at Emmett like he grew a head.
“What list?” He looks to me.
“There is this guy who wanted to do this top ten hottest guys you can fuck to show he was still number one.” I see their faces and they look to Justin.
“Brian.” They all say in unison.
“Yea I told him it was childish and that we shouldn’t do it and I wouldn’t do it.”
“Who put me on the list?” He asked me.
“He did the whole list. I told him I thought you were good looking, but that it was wrong to use you.” I see him look around and see Brian over by the pool table.
“Excuse me.” He walks away as I look at Emmett.
“They have been partners for 5 years on and off.” He tells me. And now it makes sense to me onto why he didn’t want to do Justin.
“I feel bad now.” I put on my best act as I look back over to where Justin was or seemed to be yelling at Brian, who just stood there looking at him. Looking at me with a look to kill as Justin walks away. Brian closes his eyes. For a moment, I felt bad for the guy. But he needs to be brought down.
And now I see the best way is through Justin.
“Why did they break up?” I asked.
“Brian’s tricking, Brian’s not being able to say the words I love you. Brian’s way of being Brian.” Michael lets out in a sound of anger.
“I am getting out of here.” Justin announces to us.
“Hey, how about I give you a ride?” I offer.
“Umm, its ok. Michael can give me a ride.”
“Actually Justin, I want to stick around and have a few words with my so called best friend.” Michael smiles at me.
“Ok, I’m not to far from here.” He hugs the guys. As we head out, I see Brian and Justin lock eyes and Brian then turns his eyes to me and narrows them.
“Let’s get out of here.” He walks out and into the night.
“So, where to?” I ask him.
“Let’s go to Babylon.” I look away.
“I can’t. The owner banned me for getting a blow job on the dance floor.” I look at him and can see the look in his eyes. I know I am hitting some nerves.
“Sounds like Brian. Competition isn’t Brian’s strong point. I mean he tries to, but he hates to lose.” We head to the diner instead.
^^^^ Justin’s P.O.V
As we sit in the booth at the diner, I look at the blond across from me.
“So, want to tell me what you are thinking about?” He asks taking a sip of his drink.
“Brian. It just seems like the thing he would do.” I take a drink as he nods his head.
“Want to talk about it? About what he said or how you feel?” I smile, not knowing that it actually feels nice to have someone care about how I am feeling.
“Not really, but thank you.” I take another sip of my drink, thinking back to the fight I just had with Brian.
”How could you fucking think about a fucking ‘fucking’ bet? Ok, I know you well enough to know you would do it, but why the fuck did you put my name on it?” I scream at him
“Justin.” He tries, but I stop him from saying more.
“Did you think this would get me back into your arms, into your bed? Like some last fuck farewell?” I see him look at Brandon then back to me.
“Justin, it’s not like that.” He tries to tell me, but once again I stop him.
“Brian, I thought I meant more to you then this? I thought 5 years on and off with you were worth more then being on your top 10 fuck list.” I can feel tears and anger inside of my heart.
“Justin, you know you mean more.” He looks into my hurtful eyes and closes his.
“Brian Kinney. I love you, but this is how you ‘show’ me. I thought after we split, that you might come around. Boy, was I wrong.”
“Justin.” He goes to grab my arm. I pull away. “If you let me explain you will see this is all wrong.”
“Wrong, the only wrong thing is you got caught. The only thing wrong is that I actually believed you would come around and tell me you loved me. But I was a fool for far too long.”
“You know that’s...” I once again cut him off.
“Don’t give me any bullshit. I am not your fool anymore.” I turn to leave before he tells me
“Maybe not mine, but you are being Brandon’s.” I turn to look at him.
“At least he had the balls to not go through with the bet. He had more self respect in me and the others on that list.”
“Bullshit Justin.”
I didn’t stay to listen to anymore as I went back over to the guys and left. And now I am here with Brandon.
I feel his hands on mine bringing me back to the present and I look up to see him looking at me.
“It will all work out somehow. I know it will.” He reassures me once more.
“Yea, I hope you are right.” Looking out the window of the diner, I see Brian in his jeep. “I hope so.” I whisper more to myself as I take a drink once more.
“Shall we get out of here?” He asks me as he looks into my eyes.
“Ya, why not?”
We get back to my place and I was worried since it isn’t a ‘nice place but he didn’t say anything.
“Want a drink?” He nods as I hand him one of the bottled waters.
Before I could finish, he was holding me close to him, looking into my eyes.
“You are so beautiful.” He kisses me and at first I thought twice about it, but then I kiss him back. He has a nice mouth.
Taking my clothes off little at a time, he moves me into the bedroom. I look at the bed and think about this.
After this, there is no turning back. After this, I am no longer waiting for Brian.
After this, there are no more tears. I will start over, be anything I want to be. The sky is the limit.
After this, I will be free of Brian Kinney.
After this, I will cry myself to sleep, knowing that I will be thinking of Brian Kinney.
I feel myself being laid down and all my thoughts lay down with me as my eyes close with Brandon moving down my body and helping me move on with my life.